Thursday, August 2, 2018

August 2018, I Wave the Color Red. Watch My Power Spread, and My First Monk

    "With words we can fight back," says...an author...who participated in the 2017 Writers Resist event in Philadelphia.  One of the pieces...at the event was...by Barbara Jordan...at [the] Democratic National Convention in 1976.  "...America...we will...be...a collection of interest groups: city against suburb, region against region, individual against individual...  ...who then will speak for America?  Who then will speak for the common good?"  "I think it...replicates the feeling we had at Writers Resist...  It's not just who we are, but it's how we speak and how we express ourselves.  ...people have...not just different perspectives, but different priorities and interests...."  "People like...the Egyptian...who came to the U.S. ...amid increasing hostility following the 2011 revolution. "All the narratives happening in this country are...muddled in that haze of confusion and none of it should be."  ...also who will be allowed to speak for America.  ...the reader, who is likely going to be American, have the story transport them...outside of America, and maybe outside of our current reality entirely."  ...people who come from the old world, where many civilizations have risen and fallen, you can say that yes, this nation will cease to exist in the future.  "As a fiction writer and a teacher, one thing...the specific can be universal."In the United States, we don't elevate our writers to any particular degree.  There are other countries and cultures where writers are looked to in times of crisis.  And we don't have that recent tradition in this country."  - Boulder Weekly, 8/2/2018

     ...not knowing how to take public transportation...the education system...or how to shop at a local supermarket.  "If you come from somewhere else..."  ...International Rescue Committee...mission is "to help...survive, recover and regain control of their future."  ...family stabilization, economic empowerment, digital literacy, health coordination and psychosocial support...  - Arvada Press, 8/2/2018

     The This Is Me programs..."...strategies that promote cultural socialization...and support on racial and cultural identification and comfort" are vitally important to young adoptees, especially as they prepare to...go to college or to live on their own.  - asian avenue magazine, 8/2018

     ...Paul Rosenthal and his votes against the homeless Right to Rest bill.  ...his constituents...begged him to make sure he got that bill out of committee, but he killed that bill year after year.  Maybe developers got a hold of him.  Maybe Denver Mayor Michael Hancock got a hold of him.  ...he organized a meeting with Hancock and Denver representatives to stand against the...bill  Representative Jovan Melon and I met with Hancock personally in his office telling him, "You stop interfering."  The  battles I had with Democrats...they were like, "This is going to hurt my community."  There's this insular way of thinking that have a...socio-political effect on communities of color.  ...dressing cowards as leaders.  [Colorado Democratic Governor] Hickenlooper plays into that.  ...he feeds that whole policy belief that you have to be centrist...moderate...sell people out.  - Westword, 8/9-15/2018

     One of our great American values is volunteerism.  The civic health of our communities depends on...improving lives.  Englewood is...a great city.  Through our...Police Departments Community Relations office...Graffiti Paint Outs...Fallen Officer 5K/10K, host a National Night Out...don't miss the fun of serving alongside your neighbors.
     "It's not uncommon to run into someone from our church...  And it's just what we wanted."  ...when preservation and progress happen at the same time.  "We don't want [the neighborhood] to become something that it's not or never was." 
     ...three pillars of a community - community characteristics, governance and participation - and...eight central facts of a community - safety, mobility, natural environment, built environment, economy, recreation and wellness, education and enrichment and community engagement.  - Englewood Citizen, Fall 2018

     This month is beginning bright and early.  Shortly after 7 AM, my bus up the street to work approaches.  So does a Jehovah's Witness, a woman in a grey perm and long skirt, a Watchtower Magazine in her hand.  I tell her, "You're too late," as I am getting on the bus.  This stop is a popular one for these guys this summer.  I change buses up the street.  The driver says that this is only his second day on this route.  It's barely 8 AM now and he tells me that he's already had a drunk on his bus.  We head toward the transfer hub.  He's supposed to stop but we go past.  I mention it to him, but he's convinced that we don't need to stop there.  Works for me.  He tells me that yesterday's run went fine.  I wonder if he stopped there yesterday?  I ride to the gym for a workout and swim.  I spend a minute gazing into the blue pool water under a sky of orange haze.  On the way to work I take a new trail I've discovered.  The next day is my birthday.  I step out of my connecting bus on the way for another swim.  I run into a gas station for some dental floss.  They're out.  I ride over to a supermarket instead.  At the self-checkout, a guy is throwing his groceries into the plastic bag so fast that the self-checkout computer voice is repeating, "Place the item in the bag place the item in the bag...".  He tells the computer, "Jesus, shut up."  The rec center has a new bike rack.  A bike there is locked up with a thin cable with a combination lock.  I have a wire sniper which could cut it.  The owner has left the back light on.  I switch it off.  From there I find yet another new trail to work.  Along the way, it takes me through a beautiful retirement village.  Caucasian retirees are cautiously driving around my bike.
     It was not a bad birthday.  My boss got me a cake.  A 24-year-old girl got me a cake.  Her 4-year-old son gave me a hug.  My investment broker called me and wished me a happy birthday.  Ya know, the kind of thing which never happens to me on the bus.  A senior mental patient may want to give me a fist bump, but it just ain't the same.  The following day, I'm on a bus up the street to work.  We pass a billboard in Spanish, above a Vietnamese insurance office.  It reads, "This (beer) is for Denver.  This (beer) is for you."  Just what my neighborhood needs, more beer and whisky and shooter bottles and cans.  Yesterday evening, I chatted with a cute and groovy young female driver with long black hair.  I ask about a shortage of drivers which I heard mentioned elsewhere.  She says that the transit system will hire a group of new drivers, which will solve the problem of overtime.  Then another group will all quit.  Today, the driver of my crosstown bus is pretty late.  Once again, we get to the transit hub, and she does what more than one driver tries to to, which is enter from the wrong way.  This time, a supervisor is there and mentions it to her through her window.  She responds, "I'm a (driver for a different route, called the) Loop Extra.  This is about people not coming to work.  They just threw me this route."  After work, I'm back at a stop for my first bus home.  I know this driver as well.  She tells me that she had her first accident as a new driver.  Actually, the other driver told me 24 hours ago that she saw this driver meeting with some safety managers for the transit system.  This driver tells me that she was coming out of downtown, passing the baseball stadium.  Myself, I've had my own transit issues related to the city's sports teams.  She was excited that she was on time, and she stepped on the accelerator.  Some street sign sticking out into her lane came out of nowhere and smashed her right mirror off.  She says that the company trains drivers to be aware of these unexpected road hazards, especially downtown where it's closer quarters on the street.  One manager asked her, "You were thinking about your schedule, weren't you.  Listen, forget about the schedule.  Just forget about the schedule."
     Saturday.  I'm at the bus stop across the street from where I live.  I'm not going swimming or to a summer festival.  I'm going to work, now on a regular basis on every other, or 3rd, or perhaps 4th Saturday.  My coworker who was promoted was our Saturday employee, and she will be working at another location for the company.  I notice that the time and temperature sign across the street, which conked out one or two winters ago, is working again.  What I remember about this bus on Saturday mornings is how crowded it is, even at 7AM.  It arrives with one bike on the rack already.  I get onboard to an already standing room only crowd.  This is the south end of its route and it's just getting started, and already it's full.  At stops which, during the week, we would otherwise blow past, we stop to pick up handfuls more passengers.  I glance around to see who is filling up the bus early on the first day of a weekend.  It appears to be young Mexican men on their way to painting jobs, and Mexican women in housekeeping uniforms.  I assume that these are the people who are not otherwise filling the rest of the boulevard with bumper to bumper street racing pickup trucks.  These passengers are serious about their Saturday bus ride.  I have yet to see one of them fumble for or search their belongings for fare.  When we arrive at the train station, more than half of the bus clears out.  I'm now sitting across from a couple of women speaking Spanish.  One has a bucket with nuts and fruit.  I hear say something about vegetables, working more hours, and being tired.  I chime in with my Spanish and ask, "You're tired because you work a lot?"  "Yes," she replies.  She's a cook in a Mexican restaurant.  She works seven days a week.  The other lady says, "It's Mexican food.  It's good food."  I change buses and am sitting in front of a guy softly speaking Spanish into his phone.  Out of the window, I can see a train on the new line making a test run.  We stop for a woman sitting on the sidewalk against a pole.  She tells the driver, "I don't have any...I don't have any money right now.  Sorry."

     The infant Republic...  One head was at Peking...under warlord rule.  The other...in Canton, where Sun Yat-sen and the Kuomintang were still trying to establish a democracy based upon Greek and Roman ideals most of which were foreign...  ...from coastal cities...the Western Powers had...Concessions and...extra-territorial rights.  The big warlords could always retreat to a foreign Concession, send one's money to a foreign bank, and await a more opportune time to [plunder cities for tax money and natural resources.]  The tendency of local warlords to take over after harvest when it was taxation time, and...abdicate during the rougher seasons, made for...political instability.  ...ruthless taxation...made...communities that specialized in robbery.  ...he improved the mission station workshop, cannibalizing cast-off equipment fro the mine...  He needed an assistant mechanic but as soon as he taught one...the local bus company would lure him away as an expert.  The bamboo groves were inhabited by bandits...but n one really expected the police to take much interest in the sudden demise of the odd private traveler.  ...the bandits...were Moslems.  ...a remnant from an early migration within the Mongol Empire.  - Scott

     Sunday.  I swim.  I purchase a bike rack for my new bike.  When I get it home, i\I can't assemble it without extra parts from another bike rack I purchased last weekend.  In the evening I get my hair cut from my reliable Vietnamese beautician.  As I wait my turn, I listen to her speak with a Vietnamese client.  They both switch back and forth between English and Vietnamese during the same sentence.  I tell her that I enjoy listening to this.  She replies that she doesn't even realize that she's doing it.  On Monday, I hop om a bus up the street to work.  At the next stop, we pick up a young woman dressed either for work or going to class.  She has visible perspiration on every part of her skin.  Some 24 hours later, I am on this same bus after work, coming back the opposite way.  The bike rack is full, and I am one of two passengers with their bikes inside the bus.  That's as full as it gets as far as bicycles go.  A middle-aged guy and a young woman come through the front door.  The woman has a seat and the guy stands.  The female carries a cane but has no discernible trouble walking.  I wonder if she carries it for the guy, who she spends the ride referring to as "poppa."  But Poppa has his own walking staff.  He also has a cap which reads, "Disfunctional Veteran, Leave me alone."
     Wednesday.  How is it already the middle of the week?  I go for swims at the outdoor pool under skies which appear as if the horsemen of the apocalypse are about to descend.  Then by noon the entire sky is blue.  All week, morning and evening, I see and hear trains doing test runs on the new line.  I'm on a bus up the street to work.  At one stop this street guy gets on.  The driver has an issue with him which I cannot hear.  He responds with, "I will.  I will.  I injured it at work.  I swear to God."  (?)  He briefly passes out before waking up to get out a few stops later.  Some 12 hours later, I'm on my first bus home from work.  A passenger is standing and conversing with the driver.  Below his cargo shorts, on his left calf, is a tattoo of a young woman's head.  With him is a plastic bucket with some odds and ends inside.  I hear him tell the driver that he was a mental health counselor for 20 years.  I step off the bus as it arrives at my boulevard.  I ride over to the stop for my lst bus home as it approached the light.  Out of the shelter steps an old guy who wants to know if I "ride the bus much?"  he has this minth's bus pass for sale at half price.  Unfortunately for him, I purchase my bus passes from licensed vendors.  We both step on the bus.  He rides a few blocks before he gets out to take his hustle elsewhere.
     Thursday is a beautiful day.  Monday and Wednesday, I swan under an overcast sky of death.  Yesterday had a cold wind...in the beginning of August.  Tuesday and today, it's blue sky.  After breakfast in the park and a swim outdoors, I head for the trail to work.  I approach a bridge which is cast in the shade of tall trees.  In the creek are a mom and son.  On the bridge is an old guy with his walker parked next to him.  he is hidden in the shade as he does some kind of exercises, and I barely see him before running into him.  Saturday I am headed back to work.  When I was told that I would be splitting up Saturdays with the daughter of the boss, I have come to realize that this means she will be working only those Saturdays she wants to.  She's camping with the boss, so the boss can';t exactly expect her to work.  I'm on  a bus up the street to work.  We stop for a young guy with a couple of kids' BMX bikes.  I can't imagine that the driver will let him on with those.  Last night I came home from work on this route; I was one of two passengers with bikes inside the bus, not including the two on the outside rack.  That's as much as any bus can haul.  This guy is one groovy-looking character with his bushy hair, sunglasses and sleeveless shirt.  His bikes are painted in bright pastel colors, and appear as if a sweater from the 1980s exploded all over them.  He brings on a trash bag with who knows what inside.  He begins carrying in the first bike when the driver tells him he can't bring them on.  The guy appears exasperated.  He takes his trash bag and acts indignant in a goofy way.

     There were the obligatory millennials ni their felt hats and facial hair, stopping for social media...  ...obvious foreign tourists...wearing brightly colored packs and gear, and stopping to catch their breath.  ...a couple I had to guess were on some kind of we-met-online date: She was sporty and spry; he kept almost spraining his ankle.  - Elevation Outdoors, 8/2018

     In recent years, a series of public-private partnerships has worked to develop [what] cool cities tend to have: bike lanes; downtown attractions...green spaces...and..."our new town square."  ...cultures...clash, cohabitate, and collaborate...  "No zoning" turns out to be the urban equivalent of the great western myth of "no fences."  - GQ, 9/2018

     On the Saturdays which I work, I go grocery shopping after I get home from work, in the evening.  This leaves my Sundays, my only day off, free and clear.  I've noticed the latest model of an inexpensive bicycle I used to ride.  I see one on the front rack of a bus pulling up to the stop in front of the supermarket.  This bike has every one of its manufacturer labels painted over.  I wonder if this bike is stolen?  My own bus comes along and collects me, dropping myself and my groceries off a short distance up the boulevard.  I step out, directly in front of the bus shelter.  The sun has just dipped below the Rockies.  Sitting on the bench is a Mexican guy in his sixties.  He's in sunglasses and a T-shirt with an American flag on the front, with "The United States of America" underneath.  He holds a golf putter on his lap.  I don't believe that he is waiting for a bus, or for a tee time.  He's not waiting for anything.  The day after, I am out at the Jefferson County Fair.  I think that's fair.  On the train west of my neighborhood.  Along the way, I see many brand new residences.  I also see Caucasian families riding bicycles down residential streets.  As I am locking my bike up on a yield sign, an elderly couple are walking toward the entrance.  The guy teases me, asking if I am "the shuttle."  I tell him that I don't think my bike can carry more than one.  His reply is, "Shit..."  The fair has on display both a human trafficking trailer as well as a tent for the group "Evolution Isn't Real."  After a swim at the waterpark, I return home.  I head a couple blocks up the street for dinner.  Walking back, I see a fire truck parked out in the driveway of the fire station next to the bus stop across the street from where I live.  The truck turns on its lights and siren and makes its way out of the driveway.  When it's gone a low-rider hikes up its suspension as it pulls into the fire station lot, and then out again.   Monday.  I am beginning to see teenagers here and there.  I wonder if school is already back in session?  I'm across the street from where I live, at the bus stop.  Down the sidewalk comes an employee of the Mexican restaurant also on this side of the street.  We exchange greetings in Spanish.

     ...neighborhoods west of Interstate 25 can still be in the affordable range.  She shows first-time buyers homes in Denver's Athmar and Harvey Park neighborhoods, as well as Barnum and Barnum West.  [Neighborhoods which border my own, just blocks to the north and west.]  Prices there sit at about $300,000...
     Builders...are building, but the gap between supply and demand has changed little, causing steadily rising prices...up nearly 50 percent since the recession ended in Denver.  Prices can only go so high until real estate becomes out of reach...  Buyers...start looking outside the city limits for less expensive housing...   - Denver Herald, 8/9/2018

     Wednesday.  Even before I leave work, the sun drops into an orange haze of fire smoke, turning the afternoon into some kind of grey limbo.  Thursday evening.  I catch my connecting bus.  In a seat up front is a guy with tattoos and a hunting cap.  Behind me is a woman who asks him his last name.  She introduces herself as a friend of a member of his family.  She inquires if a particular family member of his is still incarcerated.  "They'll be getting out soon," she assures him.  Friday is quite a morning.  I arrive at the corner where I catch my connecting bus to work, only to see it pass by two minutes early.  The next one, scheduled to arrive a half hour later, is 45 minutes late when I see it crest the hill...and then stop altogether.  Down the typically busy sidewalk comes a line of passengers from the bus.  The first one lets me know that it has broken down.  Shortly thereafter, the bus gets going again.  The driver is a bald woman who mentions that dispatch told her to "drive it 'till it dies."  I wonder if the transit system is still hiring mechanics, as I saw they were some time ago.  She also mentions that she has never driven this route before today, doesn't know where she is going, and that her GPS is deactivated.  A passenger guide her until she disembarks.  I then take over.  After I get out I head over to the outdoor pool for the final weekday swim there of the season.

     Confucius was humanist.  "Where personal life is cultivated, the family will be regulated...the state will be in order...there will be peace throughout the world."  ...in 1927...  In Taiwan, Japan had organized an incredibly orderly paternalistic colonial society.  The major crops in Taiwan were...grown for the controlled Japanese market and...rigidly...controlled by the Japanese...  That created incredibly stable prices...  The Westerners...ran the finishing and marketing...  To become a Buddhist priest in China one studied at...18 teaching monasteries...reading in classical Chinese the 48 volumes of Buddhist scriptures.  - Scott

Keeping Up With The G Line [The new train I hope to take to and from work.]
Months overdue: 22 
The G Line is in its final testing.  On Aug. 3 testing on the G Line...added...up to 24-hours a day.
Estimated opening day: Not as yet determined.  - Aravada Press, 8/16/2018

     Sunday is my mom's birthday.  I have a busy morning.  I'm overdue for a favorite grocery item at Trader Joe's.  When I get there, I pull a thorn from my tire.  I hear air hissing out and I say, "No...no..."  The slime I had put in seals the hole.  Smartest thing I did when I bought this bike was have slime immediately put into the tubes.  I drop off film and then hit a library used book sale I heard about yesterday.  Part of a neigborhood's "Western Welcome Week."  I never saw anything western, only homeless outside the library.  After the sale I have a short ride to the train.  A derelict guy, fifteen or twenty years my junior, notices my bike.  After trying to sound as if he knows bikes, he tries to sell me a couple of bike lights.  Then he tries to sell me a wrench set, pointing out the brand.  He mentions the lights can be recharged, but I doubt it.  The tail light needs "recharging."  He mentions that he's trying to get money for food for him "and the girls."  He's there alone.  His entire story sounds like a list of lies.  He's missing some teeth.
     Monday.  It's a day where the fire smoke extends all the way to the ground, making for a day of cold wind and a sun having difficulty shining.  Down the avenue upon which I live, along the sidewalk comes a young guy I've never seen before.  He's bald and missing his two top front teeth.  He's in a maroon polo shirt (just like one I own) and a pair of camouflaged pants.  For the second day, he is the second person with missing teeth who has approached me.  I'm at the corner, waiting to cross the boulevard.  He says to me, "Hey man, you got smooth legs.  Lookin' good."  In the hope that this weird and cold morning will warm up, I'm in my bike shorts.  He lights up a smoke as I look at him sideways.  If he was in his fifties, I could understand his use of "hey man."  But he's in his twenties. We cross the street and get aboard the same bus.   I see teenagers who appear to be students on the bus up the street to work.  He gets out at the train station.  I watch him through the window as he mostly stands and stares straight ahead.  He does some stretching.
     Some ten hours later, I step onto my first bus home from work.  A couple of guys get onboard and begin conversing.  One is telling the other about surviving homelessness.  He slept outdoors for 31 years. It sounds as if he eventually went to a church t get his "homeless letter."  He then went out to my boulevard, letter in hand, to get social services which he claims includes food stamps and free medical coverage. This he says includes free doctor appointments and medicine and treatment.  He tells the other guy that he's been single for 23 years.  He got some cash through his social services, and he bought a storage shed.  What property it sits on he doesn't say.  He currently gets $700 a month from social security. He says that he used to drive a cab.  "When those white girls get drunk, they're crazy.  They're into all that weird shit."  He describes going to the bathroom outside, using baby wipes, and locating dumpsters in which to deposit the used ones.  The bus makes its way down one street where he points out an alley which has a cornucopia of dumpsters.  he also mentions one street where a couple of men live, who keep an eye on him whenever he's there.  "They're fuckin' faggots.  They think they own the whole street."
     I get out on my boulevard and catch my last bus home.  In back are a couple of passengers discussing mutual friends.  "Al my niggas are from the west side.  You know Rich?" one say to the other.  "Big Rich?" the other replies.  Along the way, a young Caucasian woman step aboard.  She takes a seat among the Mexicans and African Americans.  I watch as her head turns to follow a woman of color who steps on a few stops later.

     "Public education now operates in a competitive business-like environment...it is important for us to build our brand..."  ...he declined to explain why the chief communications position wasn't advertised publicly or why no one else was approached for the job...  ...school board president...wasn't concerned...  "I think he was trying to add...someone who would be strong in the marketing and social media area.  Hopefully it turns out...really positive..."  - Columbine Courier, 8/16/2018

     ...reading Lewis Hyde's "Trickster Makes This World."  "They are the lords of in-between," Hyde wrote of...Hermes and Mercury in Greek mythology.  ...trickster is a boundary-crosser.  Every group...trickster is always there at the gates of the city and...of life, making sure there is commerce."  Hyde argues that, society flourishes and evolves because of these "figures whose figures is to uncover and disrupt the very things that cultures are based on."  "I think of poetry as the first religion," [Anne] Waldman says.  "I think there's always been poetry in human consciousness....  You're creating a fabric that's not just about you or your personal life or even your time."  - Boulder Weekly, 8/16/2018

     {With the start of the Sino-Japanese War in 1937, Japanese bombing targets included Chinese cities.]  The hospital staffs had to be taught to hide major supplies outside the cities so they would not be destroyed...  ...generators...X-ray equipment...  It was all cached outside target areas.  [The Buddhist Red Cross]  commandeered outlying Buddhist temples as supply dumps.  "Our hospitals are filled with bomb victims, civilians...instant death with...shrapnel bombs."  ...trying to get the Christian missionaries to cooperate...  "Few if any...care two bits about any people other than their own converts."  Zig-zag trenches had been dug...and all patients who could have, must take refuge during attacks.  - Scott

     Tuesday.  I board the bus up the street to work.  I take a seat next to a young bohemian Caucasian couple.  Up the street, we take more Caucasians aboard.  They look perhaps like students.  A half hour later and I step out of my connecting bus to work.  At 11 AM on an August morning, it's cold outside under a sky full of forest fire smoke, blocking the sunlight.  The smoke almost smells like snow.  The outdoor pool on my way to work is closed during weekdays until next season.  This week, the indoor pool on my way to work is closed for renovations.  Next week is the last week for any outdoor swimming.  This summer feels as though it has been forced.  I've tried to force favorite activities into a limited schedule.  Nine and a half hours later I roll up to the stop for my last stop home.  I recognize the drunk who wanders up to the stop.  He asks me what the time is, cracks open a beer can, and beings ranting about the rich.  I head for the stop before this one, and I eave him ranting about the doughnut shop next to this bus stop.  This evening is the summer's coldest yet.  I have a long sleeved shirt on and am still cold.  I get aboard my bus.  Another bohemian Caucasian couple comes along.

The Extra Space Area
     Friday evening.  I roll up to the stop for my connecting bus home after work.  I spot a passenger with his own bike and I turn to go up to the stop before this one.  The bus arrives there with its bike rack already full but the driver allows me on in back with my bike.  This virtually assures that the passenger at my usual stop won't get on.  As he was there first, had I waited there with him, he would be the one allowed on instead of myself.  I have a seat in the "extra space area" and hold my bike vertically.  The usual cast of random characters are on board this evening.  I'm next to a grey-haired drunk who smells like beer and mumbles nonsense.  About my brand new bike, he says, "Looks like it's got a lot of miles on it."  Good, then it's less likely to get stolen.  Sitting across from us is a woman with a dog.  A senior steps aboard with a collapsible shopping cart.  He makes his way past another guy with a walker who's wearing sunglasses after sundown.  The senior tucks his cart into the remaining space in the extra space area.  A Vietnamese woman comes onboard with a cooler.  She opens it to reveal bottled water and canned soda for sale.  She offers anyone a drink for free.  One woman mentions that her stop is coming up and rings the bell.  She sits there until the drink woman asks her if she is disembarking.  The woman emphasizes that she is indeed.  The drink woman offers her a bottled water.  As she makes her way around the cooler, she takes it and says, "Well I don't really need it.  Oh, it's not cold.  Oh well, I'll take it anyway."  Another passenger behind me lets me know that he's getting out with his bike.  I put mine in his space on the rack and I decide to stand in the extra space area.  The shopping cart guy, the drunk, and the woman with the dog all begin pointing out empty seats to me.  I decide to sit up front.  The bus picks up a plethora of passengers from stops along the way, each of whom must navigate past the shopping cart guy on one side and the walker guy on the other, who, with his sunglasses, looks like a retired mafia don.  It's like a kind of senior gauntlet.  One  derelict guy comes onboard and stares at me.  He asks if he can sit next to me.  Further along, we pick up a big guy with a red bandana, and a thin woman who he claims is his caregiver.  The woman is in sunglasses as well, and basketball shorts.  He says he's disabled because he can't see.  I listen to him as he speaks to the woman in a dialect which sounds something like Cherokee.  He greets someone to whom he says that he can't see them.  He's handling his bandana when he begins waving above his head.  He says, "I wave the color red.  Watch my power spread."  He challenges anyone interested in fighting to step outside at the next stop.  He will give them a lesson is "banging 101."  His caregiver pretends to make a dash for the exit and they both share a laugh.  The pair get out on a busy corner and the last few blocks are comparatively uneventful.

     Saturday.  I'm on the bus up the street to work.  It's not quite so crowded this Saturday, but the first person I see here is Caucasian.  At the next stop another Caucasian, a young guy, steps on.  He has frosted hair and white striped pants.  The first one is sitting behind me and is on her phone.  She mentions the nickname of my boulevard.  I catch the connecting bus, ride along through a Swiss village retirement neighborhood, and along to the supermarket across the street from work.  Outside of the supermarket entrance are three guys who are collecting donations for children with "intellectual disabilities."  A sign has been posted by the supermarket.  It mentions that the trio of solicitors, all in orange reflective vests, are not on store property with the store's permission.  When I get home from work, I take the bus to the supermarket.  This bus has three Caucasians.  A middle-aged guy is sitting next to a younger one with shaggy hair.  In his bush hat, the younger one regains the other with his bohemian wisdom.  He strikes me as a self-styled world-traveler, clad in a jacket on a muggy evening.  A young woman sits behind this pair of best buds.  She has the right idea: she's in shorts and a green blouse with short Peter Pan-style sleeves.  I watch as she checks Facebook on her phone.  On her page is a photo of another bearded Caucasian.  Behind him are mountains, not the Rockies.  Below this is a photo of a big, toasted lasagna.
     Sunday.  I have a limited amount of time to swim and collect photos from the shop., not to mention grab breakfast, all before a post-birthday dinner for the mom.  Breakfast is at the 70's 24-hour diner.  The place is wall-to-wall Caucasians.  To my left are a trio of customers who all appear as if they may be 17 years old.  One girl has on a vest with a carnation.  A guy in a train hat is pouring syrup all over pancakes.  In a corner next to the kids are a pair of woman.  One has on a black hoodie and sunglasses.  She looks like the Unibomber.  Waiting for a table is a couple who came straight out of suburbia.  Their arms are covered in tattoos.  The rest of the place is filled with families.  I'm sitting next to a pair of young neo-intellectual guys.  One is complaining to the other that he doesn't have as much French toast as the menu claimed he would get, and that it's lukewarm.  "Do you want to go someplace else after this?" the other asks the first.  "Like, nah," he replies.  "Get some coffee.  But you got to get out and try this stuff.  You got to get out and try it," he says.  I believe that this is the first time the pair have been here.  The other mentions a local lifestyle magazine, "5280", which lists this place.
     Monday.  It's the last week of August.  I'm on my first bus home.  A street person gets on, a woman.  A few stops later a guy gets on.  The two know each other.  He's telling her that he realized how hard she tried not to end up homeless.  She used to work at Village Inn as a hostess.  I change buses.  At the train stop a young woman gets on and sits next to a young guy.  I listen to her tell the guy about her day today.  She's been taking care of all her "cases.  "  She mentions an officer on a task force who she says hates her.  She speaks quickly.  "I'm only on retrial," she mentions, perhaps referring to a hung jury or a mistrial.  She doesn't get along with her "baby daddy.  I'm like, 'fuck yeah, I'll do (jail) time,'" just to get away from him.  They discuss who the cool parole officers are, as well as urinalyses.  After I get home, I head across the avenue for a soda.  I walk past the newly renovated apartments.  Two Caucasian residents are in the parking lot walking three dogs, in a neighborhood where no one from any other residence walks their dog.  On the way back, I look toward open windows high above me.  I see someone's bare back, someone's foot against a window.
     This Sunday, I was yet again journeying through streets which I had not been on for a good decade.  As I passed a not-so-old place of employment, I wondered why my back rim felt as if it was taking bumps so hard.  I looked down to see that the tire was as flat as a pancake.  I have no idea what I ran over.  It was somehow appropriate, then, that I approached this place where I worked off and on, over the past 13 years, with a flat tire.  This place which held drycleaning machinery, and lines of clothes, and conveyors...  It's now a big, barren, empty room.  The supermarket across the parking lot, which many customer considered a perfect spot for a Whole Foods, has a construction fence around it and is already coming down.  Same thing with the deathburger next door.  Another shopping center facing the wrecking ball.  This is simply one store location in a defunct company of which I have a decade of memories.  Thirteen years ago I trained on the company's computer system here.  Occasionally I came in here at 5 AM to cover the drycleaner/spotter position with a handful of characters.  I courted a Mexican employee here, named Norma.  I spent the summer of 2006 working here while another presser was on maternity leave.  I spent that summer going swimming at the pool up the street every weekday afternoon on the way home.  I liked this little plant.  Working production, everything was within arms reach.  I worked here toward the end, when the new owner had shut down production, and the boiler was disconnected.  There was no heat during the winter.  The homeless mechanics he hired never filled the swamp cooler and there was no air conditioning during the summer either.  Too many stories over 12 years and two owners.
     Anyway, after mulling a busy Labor Day weekend to come, I get up Tuesday and decide that I will take off my back rim and take it to the bike shop before work...on my bike.  I am convinced that, arriving at the shop when they open (2 1/2 hours before I must be at work), I should have no problem making it to work on time.  At the shop, they tell me that they may as well fix it while I wait, as they already have work piled up from the previous day.  I have my wheel fixed in jig time, and I grab an express bus to the bus terminal at one end of downtown.  I suddenly realize that here I can purchase next month's bus pass, which three different supermarkets still don't have in stock.  This is where my luck runs out.  I haven't attempted to ride my bike while transporting another bike rim, and I elect to walk to the stop for my bus to work.  It isn't far, but I go a street too far, requiring me to go three more block just to get there.  I then discover that, due to two construction sites complete with cranes, I must walk more blocks as well as cross this downtown street no less that four times through the middle of the street.  Along the way, I recognize another passenger who I will see 24 hours from now.  He has long grey hair in a headband and his own bike.  He rides my cross town bus in the day.  I arrive at my stop.  The trashcan which is usually here is missing.  In its place is a plastic tub chained to the bench.  The bus is late, and I'm a half hour late to work.  But I successfully employ a couple of bungee cords to transport the rim and myself on my bike to work.
     After work, I am on my first bus home.  A woman with a pile of bags and a suitcase on wheels comes aboard.  She strikes up a conversation with another passenger next to her.  She informs the other that she is moving out of state.  "It's scary here."  No affordable housing perhaps?  We pull up to a stop next to a big tree.  Some four street folks appear to be surprised by our arrival.  One guy has a pile of stuff.  A huge laptop sits atop an electrical box under the tree.  He brings on a couple of loads of stuff, including an enormous backpack and his bike.  The driver tells him that he can't wait until he loads all of his stuff.   The guy does not appear to have been expecting this and is completely caught off guard.  He makes the decision to ask the other three to keep track of his stuff and he will stay with the rest here, and catch up with them later.  "So you yourself are not getting onboard?" The driver is completely perplexed.  He does not appear to be as familiar with the dynamics of the street.  Two different worlds are colliding, that of civilization and that of those who used to live in civilization.  It's not long after we get going again that his pals haul off all his stuff again.  The driver complains about this particular bus route, that no driver wants it and it's consistently late.  I hear the new train line being tested this month 24 hours a day.  When it finally opens, I will have fond memories of all who have toiled upon this route.  When I change buses, a girl gets on this other bus with a can of Busch in her hand.
     Wednesday.  I'm at the stop for my connecting bus to work.  It's some time past 10 AM.  Clear sky.  Cool breeze.  No damned fire smoke.  The end of this month is comparatively beautiful with the previous weeks of apocalyptic skies and chilly mornings.  Perhaps we shall have a few short days of summer after all.  Even during the mornings I can hear the new test train running, south of where I sit and running north and west of here.  Residents along the new line now complain about the round the clock train horns blowing at every crossing, as the test trains are mandated to do.  It's a quiet mid-morning.  Peaceful.  One of my rims has a new tube and is back on my bike.  All I need now is for the bike shop to hook up the brake cable, which I am unable to complete.  I will do this Sunday.  Busy weekend ahead.  Last swim of the season at the waterpark.  Final summer festival downtown.  And the annual pilgrimage to a natural cold spring swimming pool, El Dorado, followed by a trip into Boulder.  After work this evening, I'm on my last bus home.  The population of my boulevard includes a new racial demographic.  A blonde Caucasian girl who looks like a student disembarks.  One stop later, a homeless couple come aboard, the guy carrying a couple of sleeping bags.  Not long after, a high school football played steps on in his uniform.
     On Thursday I am at the bus stop across the street from where I live.  I've been here at this particular stop, off and on, for some eleven years now.  This morning is the first time ever when I see a monk, complete with brown robe and rope belt, walking down the sidewalk.  Seen a lot of characters stumble and hobble past this bus stop, but this is my first monk.  He walks to the corner, crosses the boulevard, and heads back the opposite direction up the street.  I wonder if he's a real monk, or another mental patient living permanently in Halloween.  I have a monk robe costume, but his is better.  I wonder which of us is less mentally stable.  The bus arrives and deposits me some sixty block later.  As I am removing my bike from the rack, I put it down between myself and a guy hobbling along with a walker.  He's stooped over and I don't know if the driver can even see him.  The bus begins to pull away and the guy yells, "Hey bro!  Hey bro!"  The bus pauses before it takes off.  Some ten hours later, I arrive at the stop for my first bus home, just in time to watch it go past.  Two minutes early.  Looks like this evening, I will be taking another bus which goes to an existing train, to another train, to my last bus home.  Between trains I am downtown between 8:30 and 9 PM.  It's a short ride from one side of the station to the other.  I hear a voice behind me telling me to stop as I approach the entrance to a sidewalk.  It's a middle-aged street guy on a skateboard.  He wants to sneak onto the sidewalk before I cut him off.  Wow.  Homeless road rage without a motorized vehicle.  Don't trust anyone on a skateboard over 50, bro.
     Friday.  It's the last day of the month, and it's going out with the bustling return of my boulevard's inhabitants, awakened from their summer staycations.  Again I am on the bus up the street to work.  How long, I wonder, before I bid these crowds farewell and make for a shiny new commuter train.  This week, these buses in the morning are packed.  When I step aboard, the first thing I see is a young guy with tattoos all over his face and head.  A woman in a wheelchair prepares to disembark in a few blocks.  At her stop a couple of young women step on and she admonishes them with, "Wheelchair!"  As they make way, the woman roll out and says, "Bimbos."  I put the seat down where the woman and her wheelchair were and have a set.  A skinny elderly street guy in a tank top steps on and sits next to me.  He spend his ride scratching off his lotto ticket.  A couple of middle aged guys discussing home repairs get out and a couple steps on to take their seat.  I get up to toss some trash in a small bag up front.  When I turn back, the woman is standing up with her face against the window.  She's looking for an address of an apartment for rent.  She mentions to someone who asks her what she's doing that his case officer gave them a list of addresses.  An overweight middle aged caucasian guy steps on.  He has long blonde hair in a headband, and he's in a hippie T-shirt and has zen tattoos on his legs.  He stands for a while before having a seat next to the couple.  He asks to borrow the guy's phone, and calls someone to mention that he's "on the bus.  You're not listening to me.  I'll be home in 10 minutes.  Bye."  He tells the guy not to answer of "she" calls back.  She does, and the guy answers to tell her, "He's gone.  Don't blow up my phone.  Don't call me."  And don't forget, have a great Labor Day Weekend.  We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun.  But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time.  This month is out.
    


























Sunday, July 1, 2018

July 2018, Thirty-five Trillion Colors and Good Vibes Only


     ...because insurgents strike supply routes so often, it's...the non-infantry soldiers...with fewer up-armored vehicles - also end up in engaging in combat.  I speak Arabic, so I participated in interrogations.  I had to...do battle with...the locals...  i pointed my weapon at a child.  ...night of the mountains west of Mosul, no moon, no stars...  The smell of dead animals being burned.  How the faces of local women, and especially little girls, just "lit up"...at the sight of a female soldier...  Saddam's policies - marble, multiple colors...designs and layered, incredibly beautiful...  I asked Rick sometimes about Islam.  ...their end-of-time beliefs...  In the end of days...all Muslims would rise up and kill all non-believers.  "Would you kill me?"  And he said, "I don't know."  - Love My Rifle More Than You, K. Williams, 2005

     It's Bingo Night at the American Legion Post 111 in Louisville [, Colorado].  I stop in...to talk about...guns and Trump.  But all the veterans - and their sons and wives and daughters - want to talk about is fireworks.  "Since 1991 the American legion hs run the fireworks for the City of Louisville.  One member has their pyro license.  We're there from 6 a.m. until midnight.  ...everybody thinks the City of Louisville puts it on.  ...the person who has the pyro license is an American Legion member and...a lot of the people...on the course...are all American Legion people...in their donation hours."  "And we are veterans," the bartender says.  "If we used the Louisville money," a voice from the other side of the bar calls, "That shit would be 15 minutes.  Ours is 30."  ...Gastronauts, a restaurant  that uses the Legion kitchen,..serves the Legion members their meals.  "We have not seen the influx of new members...from the Gulf War and Iraq and Afghanistan.  I don't think they even know what American Legions of VFWs are...  We just got a new young couple...in the Marines...and they didn't know what it stands for."  - Boulder Weekly, 6/28/2018

     Not to be confused with people who actually work to make a difference in the world, the Ecosexual...is mindful.  He'll surely tell you about his mindfulness.  His monologues will be so infused with the word mindful that you'll soon want to give him a piece of your mind.  And don't even get him started on composting.  The Ecosexual is very present.  Mindfully present in the moment.  You can find him grazing Whole Foods...proselytizing to unsuspecting customers.  ...out for dinner, he'll take forever to order his special-dietary needs meal - but at least your bone broth will be safe.  ...he'll speak to you [about] the issues he's acquired despite a whole staff of therapists, life coaches, healers, guides, visionaries, etc.  He strives to be edgy...  Hopefully he will be able to work through it all at his next...journaling course, where he'll be sure to be mindfully present.  - Elevation Outdoors, 7/2018

     ...Satan and the demons will motivate human governments to assemble their armies, thus issuing a defiant challenge to God's interests.  The attack will result in the death of millions of people when God defeats the invaders.  ...God will defend good people from those who would crush them.  The aggressors in this conflict are "the kings of the entire inhabited earth."  ...like a puppet master, Satan will maneuver both governmental and military agencies.  If the aggressors managed to do away with His people, it would make Jehovah appear to be unloving, unjust, or helpless.  Such an outcome is impossible!  ...when Satan and his human puppets attack God's people, Jehovah will...meet force with force.  ...there will be no doubt...that they have picked a fight with the Almighty himself.  - The Watchtower, 2/1/2012

     Monday.  I just miss a bus and therefore have time to stop into the gas station across the street from where I live...before heading over to the bus stop across the street from where I live.  Inside, a little guy comes in with a walker.  He's wearing an open red flannel shirt, and he has a green flannel shirt on the front of his walker.  Tucked into a side of the walker are an umbrella and a disassembled fishing pole.  He asks the clerk if he can have some ice water for free.  The clerk gives him the OK.   When I get out to the bus stop, he's there sitting on his walker.  A younger guy comes along and gives him a cigarette or something.  The pair begin comparing notes about being out on parole from prison.  I notice that the younger guy is wearing an ankle monitor.  He's telling the other guy about working a couple of jobs to afford an efficiency apartment.  His rent is just under $900 a month.  Listening to the younger guy, he has a youthful voice and looks like a nice guy.  I have trouble picturing him as a criminal.  My bus collects me and deposits me to catch a connecting bus.  At a stop along the way to work, a couple of young guys get on.  One is in a camouflaged coat and speaks with difficulty.  He tells the driver that they have been walking for several city blocks and have no money.  Could the driver see his way to letting them go a short distance more?  Again today, a passenger gets the OK from someone in a position of authority.  The second guy is hauling a big bundle on a dolly.  Just a few stops later, the first guy tells the other that they "can get off here."  He points out the sign for the bus stop.  I disembark at the end of the line and pedal my way up a hill and down again to the rec center, for a workout and a swim.  As I am leaving, inside are kids in bright yellow T-shirts with the rec center logo.  Outside, sitting in the shade of a shack, are a handful of Mexican workers.  Each is wearing a bright yellow T-shirt with the name of the company for which they work.  After work, I arrive at the stop for my first bus home.  This evening's lone random weirdo is a little woman in her thirties.  She's in a plaid tank top and denim shorts, with a lavender bandana around her head.  She could be Workout Daisy Duke from the 1980s.  Before the bus arrives, she picks up a pair of jeans and leaves.  My bus arrives, and sown the route, I hear a hustle I haven't heard before.  A passenger at a stop tells the driver that she has last month's monthly transit system pass, not yet 48 hours expired.  Can he see his way to allowing her to use it this evening, as she "was only able to use it a couple of times last month?"  Then why get a monthly pass for two trips in a month?  At $99 per monthly pass, that's $49.50 per trip.
     The following day is the day before July 4th.  I'm on a late morning connecting bus to work.  Our route is blocked along a short stretch of road by construction.  For the first time in my 27 years on this transit system, I am on a bus which makes a 3 point turn.  And then it's the 4th.  I am downtown on the pedestrian mall, at a bar and grill for lunch.  Outside, at the front entrance, is a twentysomething girl.  She's unkempt but not dirty.  She is panhandling with an attitude.  "Anyone...have...spare...cash?  ...change?"  Her demeanor makes me doubt that she is serious.  I finish lunch and am making my way to the train.  She is just down the mall.  A guy she has past claims that she yelled at him.  I spot a vendor for the local homeless newspaper.  I ask him if he can break a twenty if I draw it out of an ATM a few steps away.  He laughs and tells me that I am the first person who has spoken to him all day.  Not even the girl with the panhandling attitude.  This means he has no change.  I hit the ATM and run into a drug store for change, and soon have a copy of his paper in hand.  We're on a corner for the train to the waterpark.  Pacing the length of this block and back again is a bald guy with a long beard.  He's in a camouflaged winter jacket, and no shirt.  I jump on a train and jump out at my stop.  At the trailhead for the bike path to the pool, a truck is parked.  The windshield has a sunshade.  Written on each side is, "Believe in heroes."

     I awoke outside of Las Vegas...to the sound of engines braking...and the smell of cheap breakfast burritos...  ...time to hit the road again...  Adventure via vehicle is...sitting in interstate traffic jams, worrying where you'll sleep that night...  In the south, I learned how to slow down...  Life revolved around butter and bouldering.  ...in...a...blizzard...post-holing through the carless streets in search of sled-worthy hills.  ...a puppy...teaching me how to hang my head out the window of a speeding car, to smell the earth...  Out in the Western mountain states...I would fold camp [and] pray my baby-wipe shower rendered me socially acceptable for meetings with outdoor executives...  ...in Kentucky...baked crust wafting through wet summer air after a long day of clipping bolts  in Red River Gorge.  ...each of these...memories...belong to...every human who ambles down highways in pursuit of America.  I spent a year living out of a...Sprinter van, summers in Honda Pilots and borrowed Nissan NV campers, weekends in rentals, a month [in] back of a...Jeep with three dirty boys, 33 days sleeping in the hatchback of a Scion.  - Elevation Outdoors, 7/2018

     ..."reward" retreats are very different from "planning" or "project specific" off-site getaways.  ...working/relaxing ratio; focus group of sessions; and depth of commitment...  Rewards are more likely to include non-associate guests, but warm weather retreats may have simultaneous working sessions and entertainment for non-associates with the two merging for social events.  Combine simple, proven, interactive casual group-appropriate activities like hamburger grilling, Frisbee...bowling, or trivia, with...simple personality tests...  - American Drycleaner, 6/2018

     Travel Channel' "Booze Traveler"...  "Travel should be about inspiration...enjoying a drink with a stranger."  ...drinking is a universal language shared by many.  ...drink with the Taiwanese ghostbusters...and...zen at a private spa with a slightly intoxicated monk.  ...fascinating to walk the same areas as the "killing fields" of Cambodia.  "It's a wonderful and surprising country."  ...a selfie moment...at the DMZ (Korean Demilitarized Zone).  - asian avenue, 4/2018

     I usually smoke [marijuana] at least three times a day: before I run or go to yoga...  ...it's not holding me back from the life that I want to live.  ...I miss...being too high too function.  ...in college...it only took a couple of bowl hits...  And that's...East Coast...mediocre mids [sic]...  ...some of my...income comes from writing [marijuana] strain reviews, and turning down work...would be financially irresponsible of me.  ...I can't remember the last time I've gone...without consuming weed...  ...a...break will...be a challenge...pushing me out of my comfort zone.  Will I look forward to trail running if I am completely sober?  Is it going to be as enjoyable?  Will I get bored or develop social anxiety...?  How am I going to fall asleep at night without getting  high...?  ...I'm going to write about my...side effects...  - Boulder Weekly, 7/12/2018

     Friday.  I'm looking forward to the weekend.  A new movie is showing at a mall which I have recently reconnected with.  Or rather connected with in a way for the first time, even though I used to live up the street for sixteen years.  I've discovered a new health-conscious-fusion-carbon footprint-love not hate restaurant there, in that old money neighborhood where trendy was trendy before it was trendy, in a city which has thrown its lot in with those who drank the Kool Aid; where existence has become the message.  And this weekend is that neighborhood's art festival, the metro area's original art festival to end all festivals.  I haven't been to this festival since I lived there.  The place comes with baggage.  That I have returned as a result of my new relationship with a camera store not far from it, and a swimming pool along the way, reminds me of my own advice to others: never say never.  But I get ahead of myself, as usual.  This morning, I am at the bus stop across from where I have been living since moving from said neighborhood, eleven years ago.  I am waiting for the same bus as a Mexican guy.  I realize this because we both decline two buses which arrive on one route, and a third bus on yet another route.  And we both continue to watch down the boulevard.  He's in a sky blue T-shirt with white letters on the front.  It reads in English, "Never been cool."  He finally gives up and crosses the street.  Then the Jehovah's Witnesses are back.  The bastards sneak around and park behind me, in front of the fire station.  This must be their favorite summer bus stop.  I won't mention the two young Latter Day Saints who live in the new Caucasian apartments just across the street.  The next thing I know, there is a guy standing next to me, shirt and tie, his grey hair blow dried. He otherwise looks like a high school guidance counselor from my middle school in the late 1970s.  He hands me a Watchtower magazine with "ARMAGEDDON" across the front.  "Goin' to work?" he meekly asks, his voice so weak it makes it sound as if he has beaten by thugs out to steal his Paul Mitchell hair product.  I tell him that I would love to read about ARMAGEDDON.  "Actually," he replies as if asked, "it's positive."  Thank Jehovah the bus is here.
     Saturday.  I am indeed at the aforementioned indoor shopping mall, for lunch among the neighborhood's eclectic, hip, and moneyed residents.  I was a younger man during the times I was last here.  Ten, twenty, some twenty-five years younger.  It was not so much animosity I had for the people of this neighborhood when I lived here.  Perhaps it was more a lack of patience for the same old apparent stereotypical kind of person I saw here.  I don't feel that way since I have been returning here this summer.  Then again, I don't live here anymore.  And the people in the neighborhood where I live now are, shall we say, less susceptible to criticism.  Of course, all the parents appear twenty years younger now.  On my way here, I turned a corner on a sidewalk to find myself suddenly behind a young Caucasian couple.  I had to slow down until I decided to go around them by moving onto the grass.  It looked like they weren't as interested as I in making the green light through the intersection.  When I hit the grass, I toppled off the bike.  They had no idea I was there, so to them I must have dropped out of the sky.  It was the usual drawing in of breath and, "Are...you...okaaaaay?"  I was little the worse for wear and more worried that my bike was still functioning.  Ya know, so I could eventually get back home.  "Bikes can be fixed," the female points out.  I proceed to straighten the handlebars with my bare hands.  So they can be.  I point out the virtues of a $99 bike.  Wrong neighborhood for the dissemination of my own experience.  The guy is unimpressed that I don't want any help, and they are on their way.  So am I fortunately.  Not far at all from here, I had to drive my car with a flat tire the few blocks home from the supermarket.  A decade or so ago.  Perhaps when they were in high school, or younger.  I wonder what they would think of the fact that I no longer own a car, haven't for more than a decade.  It eventually quit here in this neighborhood as well.  My weekend bike, I recently discovered, has a bent back wheel which continues to operate.  If anyone is successful in stealing this one, they will make off with a falling apart machine.
     After lunch, I head over to the camera shop to drop off some film, but not before sticking my head into another business.  A girl I used to work with, for another company, manages a store here.  I tell her employee to tell her I said high.  My friend is now about the age I was when I was her manager, when I first became a store manager.  Too many memories.  I then head to the pool.  I missed the bus which would have brought me all the way out here, and could only take one half the distance.  It's a blazingly hot day to ride.  I make it to the pool just as clouds from an approaching storm turn down the sun.  After my swim I am back out on the bike trail.  I used to ride home on this trail, from the store with the girl I worked with.  Perhaps even less than a year ago, I wouldn't ride my bike if I didn't get enough sleep of if there was inclement weather.  Such things no longer influence my decision making.  Before I get to the art fest, I decide to stop into a deathburger for an early dinner.  As I eat, I watch a guy panhandle with his dog, on the median strip of a busy avenue.  There is another street guy inside.  He has bushy grey hair and a busy beard.  He asks me where the nearest Target is.  It's right next to us.  He's from the street...right outside...right?  He wants to know also where a Best Buy is.  If it's still open, it's further down the boulevard across from the interstate.  He tells me he wants to get a phone, "I figure it's the best thing," he admits.  Sure.  If you happen to know other people with phones.
     Then it's onto the festival.  I lock my bike next to a big new bank building where a deathburger used to be.  What I otherwise remember about this festival is it being blazingly hot.  But clouds have rolled it and the temperature has dropped.  It's a fest infamous for its entrance fee of multiple hundreds of dollars, pricing out all but the money-making artists.  It's interesting to see a couple of booths with flags above them, which read "emerging artist."  A marketing concession to the unwashed artist masses?  One of the first booths I stop to look at has southwestern landscapes with intense color.  I speak a bit to the artist about painting.  She quickly can tell that I have some experience, but we are interrupted by a wannabe buyer.  I take the opportunity to slip away.  The fest is enormous, going on for street after street.  I spot a collection of cloudscapes done with amazing command of pastel.  The following late afternoon, I am off the bus on my corner, back from a swim and a movie.  I hear a voice at the apartments across the street from where I live.  i recognize it as Caucasian.  I glance over to see...a guy in a kilt and a woman dressed as a wench.  They must have returned from the renaissance Festival.  In...my...neighborhood.
     Monday.  This is one hot month.  I'm on a crosstown bus to work with a driver who is a trip.  He is from Africa and he's constantly stopping the bus and opening the front door to say hi to someone, or to tease another.  We stop next to a parked dump truck.  The driver has his door open and is drinking coffee.  Our own driver opens the door and asks the other driver for some coffee.  Down the route, we happen upon a street closed for construction.  Through his window, he tells one Public Service guy that there should be a detour sign.  Then he tells another guy who tells him, "I'm trying to reach traffic control right now."  Then we turn a tight corner past a parked motorcycle and an oncoming truck.  We stop next to a Public Service vehicle.  The driver opens the door and complains to a third Public Service guy, this one in the truck, about no detour sign.  The guy in the truck claims that detour signs are "permanent.  This is a temporary job."  (?)  Down the street, our driver stops and opens the door to tell a young woman walking her dog what a beautiful German shepherd she has.  Even though we are now late.  At least she is happy.  When we arrive at the transfer station, he converses with a transit supervisor in an African dialect.

     ...increased tax bill[s] plus rising rents.  [They may] destabilize many...established neighborhoods.  ...rents are...quadrupling...encouraging...owners to unload properties, adding to the...upward spiral.  ...spaces...are turning over more frequently.  In..."Congress Park, Capitol Hill, Cherry Creek," the "Golden Triangle, Wash[ington] Park" and...more...  Shoppers...prize...walkability.  Many if not most...smaller ventures likely cannot survive...higher and higher property tax rates plus rising rents.  - Glendale Cherry Creek Chronicle, 4/2018

History of area important
     Before it was known as Restaurant Row, East 17th was also known as Lavender Row...  ...having...businesses friendly to the LGBTQ community.  "It just seemed to have an expiration date."  - Denver Herald, 7/12/2018

     [The mayor of Denver said] "we should...keep families...from being displaced."  ...the city would soon unveil a Neighborhood Equity and Stabilization Team, or NEST, that will...get ahead of new construction that could alter the character of neighborhoods...  "The team will deploy resources...to neighborhoods...under the threat of gentrification...and blunt any threatened loss of culture...that investment can cause.  Denver is on the rise," [the mayor said.]  - The Denver Post, 7/27/2018

     An image...  He was...against a wall...  ...a jukebox next to him.  Where had that been?  In Georgetown [Washington, D.C.] on weekend liberties...  We had picked up...government secretaries - all the girls in Washington seemed to be government secretaries.  We danced...late autumn...  We sat down and filled...glasses, all of us laughing...  ...we were all laughing very hard...  ...Levy took out his pipe...  ...in Georgetown, a long time ago, before Vietnam.  ...I was having a hard time remembering anything that happened before Vietnam.  - Caputo

     Tuesday.  On my last bus home.  A pair of twentysomethings, or early thirtysomethings, are sitting up front.  One is in a tube top and magenta shorts, and has a small dog in her arms.  The other has her legs crossed across a seat for two people, while she does her makeup in a compact mirror.  A passenger gets onboard with his own small dog.  The woman's dog begins barking before she hide's it's vision from the other dog.  A third young woman gets onboard.  She knows the other two.  The first two young women disembark at a stop, and the third at another.  Down the boulevard, a fourth woman gets onboard with her own dog.  The following day, I am at the deathburger next to work.  Through the window, I watch a guy in his seventies.  He's on his phone, on speaker, gesturing with one arm fully extended.  On the back on his neon lime T-shirt is "Frisbee Golf."  This morning I was out the door early for an outdoor swim and my first workout at the brand new rec center.  I end up getting there so early, I'm done working out with 45 minutes before the pool opens.  I suddenly have something which I never have.  Time.  I have some time to relax.  This rec center is so new there appears to be no hot water in the shower as yet.  I stick my head under for a cold shower.  Then I ventured to a patch of shade outside, next to a North Denver residential street.  Down the road from here is the town of Golden, and just across the highway from there are the mountains.  I sit and wait for 9 AM to arrive.  The sun is climbing into a clear sky.  It sparkles on bright green tree leaves.  This is an old but a beautiful neighborhood.  I realize how lucky I am to be up around these parts.  Against the wall of a brick home, between a pair of bushes, are a collection of bicycle tires.  Under a Neighborhood  Watch sign are a collection of plastic sunflowers on metal stakes.
     The coming weekend is a busy one; two festivals and another library used booksale, and possibly a swim.  Before my coworker leaves work on Friday, she tells me that I must work the beginning of her shift on Saturday.  But she will be in at noon that day, because she is getting an early start on a delivery at 8 AM.  As Saturday goes along, I am trying to decide how I am going to arrange these events into a shrinking time frame.  When Saturday comes, I am at work at 8 AM, two hours before we open, to help my coworker assemble her delivery.  She does not show up until 11 AM, telling me that she "got a late start."  But she promises to be back by 1:30 PM.  I don't see her until again.  I don't have time today to make it to the booksale.  Then I get a brainstorm.  I will go grocery shopping tonight, instead of tomorrow morning.
     In the meantime, I am on my last bus home after work.  In a handicapped seat is an overweight woman who is alternately dozing off and lifting her head.  Her eyes are red and there are bags under them.  Someone behind me declares that the air conditioning will work better if the open windows, of which there are more than a few, are closed.  The high today was 103 degrees F.  It's currently 93.  Another passenger begins closing them.  A female passenger complains that he hit her by mistake.  An argument ensues.  A couple of guys get onboard.  One tells the driver that he is the caregiver for the other [and therefore is not required to pay fare for himself.]  The two have a seat in back and themselves begin arguing as well.  I'm halfway home and the bus is getting crowded on this hot midsummer afternoon.  A young mom and her daughter get onboard and take a seat next to an elderly guy, and across from the dozing woman.  The mom has a cap on which reads "Good vibes only" on the front.  The guy next to her asks the dozing woman if she is on drugs.  The woman denies this.  The mom asks the guy not to mention drugs in front of her daughter.  The other woman in back, who claims to have been mistakenly hit, now announces that "It stinks in here."  She gets up to open the window above a passenger who just came onboard and took a seat.  I recognize the guy.  I took his photo perhaps the week before, when he was in lime skinny jeans and knee-high boots.  He tries to tell her that the air conditioning will escape through the open window, and eventually gets up to close it.  The passenger sitting in front of me says, "Well, it is a city bus."  The mom says, "Maybe someone needs to take a shower?"  The bumped into/it stinks woman in back tells the guy she's arguing with to shut up.  He tells her, "Make me."  She begins to call the authorities to notify them...of the entire story, or how it stinks in there and how someone asked her to make them shut up.  The guy she's making a complaint about disembarks from the bus.
     Sunday.  There is also an Irish festival which I will not make, though it isn't far from the waterpark.  I'm out of the door at 9:30 AM.  I ride to a 24-hour diner for breakfast.  Then it's on to the nearby train, and out at the stop for the trail to the waterpark.  Yesterday was 103 degrees F.  Today, it's overcast and...67.  And it's spitting the occasional raindrop.  But the sun is attempting to peek through the clouds.  I hit the pool for a short swim and slide on the slide.  Then its off to the booksale.at a library I haven't been to.  I know my way around these parts.  I worked up the street from here for 2 1/2 years and down the street from here for almost 10.  I grab lunch at a Whole Foods, where the third person I ask is able to direct me toward the library.  The clock in the library is an hour fast.  After the sale I use the men's room, which is so secluded behind a door and long empty hallway that I feel like I'm in an episode of Get Smart.  I use one of their computers to check the bus schedule and find one going to a train.  I ride there and grab it.  The train whisks me downtown.  By the time I get out, it's pouring rain, which it will continue to do until shortly after 7.PM.  I wait under an awning outside of a high end clothing store, with indigent passengers attempting to stay dry until the bus arrives.  We pile on when it arrives.  Sitting in one seat are a pair of drunk Caucasian young women.  One is passed out and hiccups.  This bus takes me up to the first festival, the Denver County Fair.  There are carnival rides and games outside which closed at one point because of the rain.  Inside I spot a woman I've never met but used to see on the 4 AM bus to work every morning, some five years ago.  There are scantily costumed young women making a pitch for the "freak show" part of the fair.  One is a sexy fairy and the other is a character who appears to be a sexy LSD fabrication of Alice in Wonderland.  It's a laid back mellow organic farm kind of fair.
     I hop on the bus back to downtown.  It continues to pour.  I have the time, I think, to head over to the Black Arts Fest, the second festival.  But I would get soaked.  And with only an hour and a half to go in the three day event, they are probably rained out anyhow.  Catch you next year.  I get out on the pedestrian mall and ride down the mall in the rain.  I happen upon a train, which takes me to an intersection where I also happen upon a bus home right away.  Regardless, when I get back to my own corner, I am soaked.  I deposit the bike and pair of used books, which somehow remain dry, at home and head across the street with both dry clothes and an umbrella.  From the firehouse on the other corner come a firetruck.  It crawls across the boulevard, into the parking lot on the northwest corner, and probes its way across my avenue into the lot on the southwest corner.  All the time, the lights and siren are going.  It returns to the boulevard and makes its way back into the lot of the gas station on the northwest corner.  Iv'e never seen a firetruck go to an emergency so slowly, but Sunday evening traffic at 6:30 PM is its customary bumper to bumper quantity.  An ambulance has joined the firetruck.  I wonder if the person put in the ambulance is a victim of malfeasance inside the gas station, or perhaps someone who passed out or fell asleep in the parking lot.  In the pouring rain.
     Monday.  According to the transit system customer service, I have a four minute wait until my crosstown bus to work.  I catch it on the busiest sidewalk where i have ever waited for a bus.  I am constantly having to get out of the way for dog-walkers, runners, and assorted residents.  I can see on the horizon a pedestrian coming along.  As he passes the bus bench, I can see he's in a neon yellow T-shirt with "Pump it up" on the back.  The sum peeks through the clouds and I move onto a shady part of the sidewalk.  From the same direction, but across the street, comes a guy in a kilt.  He crosses the street and begins coming down this sidewalk, and I move out of the way.  The following day is overcast and threatening rain, and cool.  Yes, this is a blog about the month of July, and we are smack in the middle of the summer.  I don't know what this weather stuff is all about.  I get north and have a short swim just before the sun comes out.  After, I'm headed to work through a quiet residential neighborhood.  Headed my direction on the sidewalk is a young woman with her earbuds in.  She's wearing a National Geographic T-shirt.
     Wednesday evening.  After work, I'm at the stop for my first bus home.  I watch a guy come across the middle of the avenue with a bike.  I recognize this nimrod.  I believe that it was a few months ago I first saw this guy.  It was in the morning and he was waiting for this same bus coming up here.  He was waiting for the bus standing in the fucking street.  The driver yelled at him for being in the street.  he told her to "settle down."  He couldn't reach the back of the bike rack, so he put his on the front and told me that I would have to work my bike around his.  His earbuds are in and he has a lit cigarette between his lips.  The bus comes along and collects us.  He doesn't go far, perhaps eight blocks one way and the same distance on a perpendicular street.  He stands to get out and I examine his backpack.  He has a small plastic bottle on the side, a pack of smokes in a mesh pocket, and a pair of rolled up gloves in another pouch.  I ride with my gloves in the summer.  I guess he carries his.  The following morning is Thursday already.  The summer is half over.  Another weird overcast day.  I step out of the bus up the street, at the Sinclair station.  Standing in front of the exit from the parking lot is a middle-aged woman.  She has her hands on her hips, and she's in a matching red flowered print top and bottom.  Is she waiting for the gasoline tanker truck?  I get onto the crosstown bus.  In a seat is a guy in his thirties.  He's wearing a dirty denim shorts and a worn sports team T-shirt and cap.  I don't think he's homeless.  He's missing that nowhere-to-go-vibe.  It's something else about him.  He's on streaming video over his phone with a woman the same age.  Wherever she is the light is flattering on her face.  It looks soft, almost Renaissance.  When he stands up to get out, I see an ankle monitor on his leg.  After work, I am at the stop for the same bus, headed back the other way.  On the bench is a guy asking me in Spanish if the bus goes to a particular intersection.  I tell him that it goes to a transfer station where he can catch the bus he wants.  But I don't know how to say "transfer station."  I say "location of many buses."  he asks about another intersection which will work for him.  Yes, I say, this bus goes there.  The bus arrives with a driver who speaks more Spanish than I do.
     Friday.  I'm on a bus up the street.  A guy a couple of seats behind me gets on his phone.  "Yeah, this is Randy.  I'm from store 2658.  I'm on the bus this morning.  I'm on the bus now.  I'll be ten or fifteen minutes late.  ...cool."  I couldn't begin to guess which chain store brand has 2658 locations in the metro area.  He hangs up and the guy sitting between us begins giggling intermittently.  Randy gets back on the phone.  He tells someone at his job that he's ready to come back to work after an accident.  However his company requires a docter's "letter" from any employee returning to work after an accident.  The penalty, according to him, is the potential for termination.

     ...The Island, a beach volleyball facility in southeast Denver.  Beach vollyball is booming around the Denver area, with sand courts at bars, clubs, and parks.  ...has six indoor sand courts...  ...the owner...also owns The Oasis...in Broomfield.  ...the popular two-on-two doubles that is seen on television and at the Olympics.  There is no ocean...and players don't have to worry about elements like the wind off the shore.  "Sand in Colorado is sometimes called "jumpers sand"...sand on genuine beaches is deeper, which makes it harder to jump.  "You can play with [both] men and women on a court.  It has a high degree of immediate gratification.
     Pedestrians and bicyclists in Denver are facing a "public health crisis"...  ...the transportation options...healthiest and most affordable are the most deadly in Denver...  ..the...the city's priorities are.  ...new sidewalks...on the city's "high-injury network"...  At least $5 million for safety improvements on [my] Boulevard, which has a traffic fatality rate 20 times the average for urban streets in Colorado...  ...the city...at its current pace...will take more than 100 years before all the necessary improvements are complete.   - Denver Herald, 7/19/2018

     Denver has launched a major reconstruction project on [my] Boulevard...  Areas of focus in the action plan were determined by "looking for...overlap between our high-injury network and our communities of concern.  [My street] is one of the corridors where you begin to see trends...a lot more fatalities and serious-injury crashes."  And it's been happening for ages...  The first...corridor plan dates back to 1995.  "The public's patience and cooperation are greatly appreciated."  - Westword, 7/26 - 8/1/2018

      The solution to...food sovereignty is to dismantle the global industrial agri-food system...(the 'industrial food chain)...  Many fair trade producers are...indigenous communities that have long histories of...exploitation through colonialism.
     ...the keys to success...  Products from democratic small producer nations.  ...a risk to survival...  ...the structures of production costs and the organization of a large-scale private company...  ...and...large-scale transnational companies.  ...Nestle', Dole...(Cadbury, Nabisco)...one more product in the conventional free market trade system.
     ...indigenous authors...are...looking...at...navigating the class dynamics surrounding access to...food...  ...the Right, and those who are confused by their rhetoric will...continue to expand colonialism and exploitation.  ...it is not...a matter of...land...we can lease for five years...but a place where we can actually build our identity.  Capitalism is...maintained through slavery all over the planet, and through the enslavement of the planet itself.  - For A Better World, Spring - Summer 2018

     ...the ARISE Festival...has always been...the spitting-image grandchild of...Monterey Pop and Woodstock...  These are "dangerous times"...there's...urgency around the community building that is...this homegrown festival.  "Art is the perfect forum for a reflection of the time we are in.  Community has to be strengthened."
     ...at VisionQuest Brewery's StarWater Wednesday...hug-loving, smile-wearing, hairy eccentrics...reading poetry...making anti-establishment political statements and utering..."we are all one" with no irony...  ...billed as..."live magick!"...  The current venue...doesn't seem to need to impress someone's rich parents with sleek decor.  ...on one wall...flyers for "sustainable dog treats"...  The...main organizer, Zoe Clare StarWater...looks the part, with purple semidreads, dark witchy outfits...  Her intentions are to create a community...a regular counterweight to social media...  She sees...those in power write off the group.  "'Oh, they're just on drugs,' or whatever."  - Boulder Weekly, 7/26 - 8/1/2018

     Now, in 1900...the foreign powers...had been carving up China's major cities like some communal pie.  ...also...the uprising was anti-Christian.  The religion...demanded change throughout the whole structure of society...   In the fall of 1912...into Shanghai harbour.  ...warships flying the flags of Britain, France, and Japan.  They looked...threatening, which was their intent.  The republican revolution [in south China] was only a few months old, but...already...China was...building, looking outward to the West.  ...a new political party under Sat Yun-sen.  It's aim was to achieve nationalist ends by using Western technology to create a new China.  ...the "People's National Party," the "Kuomintang."McClure, M. Scott, 1977

     If there is a theme...it's...possibilities...  Not...another 10 miles out of the...gas in your tank or...avoid a bank fee...on your debit card...  ...the kind of bigger thinking that spawned a...Bill gates.  Dichotomies...spell genius.  Thinking big is new thinking.
     ...Yoga Among the Dolphins class...beneath...the underwater viewing area of...Siegfried and Roy's Secret Garden and Dolphin Habitat.  Yoga on the High Roller.  The High Roller, taller than the London Eye or Singapore Flyer...28 pod-like cabins...
     "We do a lot of tending to the community.  We look at how we're integrated into the community, providing jobs for people of different ages, responding to people's need to talk about their issues."  ...there isn't a standard...  ...a slight pay differential to employees who bike to work, encouraging exercise and relieving a former parking problem.  "We get children on their way home from school.  We get people with walkers in their 80s or 90s, with their caregivers.  We try to be nurturing...to people of all ethnicities".  ...embedded in communal relationships...  "I'm staying local - I'm not motivated to have strong internet sales."  - Discover Life, Spring 2018

     It's the last full week of the month.  The mornings have been in the sixties, the sun rising through forest fire smoke.  Thursday morning.  I'm at the stop for my connecting bus to work.  I'm passed by a young guy with a long blonde perm under a Pizza Hut cap, walking his dog.  he gives me a smile and a half wave before ambling on his way.  In the evening, I roll up to the stop for my last bus home.  As the bus arrives, a young woman with hair shorter than mine, skin tanned from the street, and dressed in black approaches me.  I have to ask her more than once what she is saying.  She is asking me, not in so many words, if there is a power source up in the mountains which may be utilized in the tattoo process.   The following morning, I am on a bus up the street to work.  A passenger gets onboard.  He's a young Caucasian male.  More Caucasians have been trickling onto the streets and buses in my neighborhood. This one almost appears as if he wants to be identified as a street person.  He's in Capri-length pants which are torn off at the cuffs.  His skin has no grime.  His clothes are not limited to local sports team jerseys.  I like how is left shoe is untied.  I don't recall ever seeing anyone homeless with untied shoes.  I've seen socks with no shoes, but his foot gear appears hip enough.  In fact, his dreadlocks are not matted and his bushy beard is so clean that its auburn color shines.  The brand of his backpack is neither Hello Kitty or Disney, but gender-appropriate to anyone with the money to choose.  Rather than slumped in the seat or passed out, he sits with a coffee in hand looking relaxed, not harried or in despair or worn out and used up.  He has instead an air of confidence, rather than an air of confusion or resignation or disconnection.  He occasionally looks over his shoulder, not as if he is without any social identity, but indeed as if he is assessing his place on the bus from an understanding of his identity.  I can't say who he is or where he is from.  I don't believe that he sleeps on the street or digs through trash cans.  He has no cane, as does another guy his age who gets onboard.  I can instead see him behind a desk in one of the metro area's technology centers., or lounging at a pool for singles, or cruising a bar in Lower Downtown.
     I get out at the corner for my connecting bus to work.  The Sinclair station there is not busy with vehicles getting gas, but inside there are more people than I have ever seen.  They all appear to be getting something to eat.  One middle-aged woman wants to use the ladies' room.  Instead of the usual riff raff, delivery drivers and construction guys, these are mostly student-age patrons.  A couple of tall blonde guys in baseball uniforms come inside.  They search the aisles for a snack.  This is a far cry from the revolving drivers asking for specific dollar amounts on their pumps.  What a weird Friday.  Down the way, at my bus stop, a guy on a ten-speed comes out of the alley, stopping at the entrance.  I watch him put his phone to his ear.  he crossed the street and stops in the bike lane to send a text.  I wouldn't park in any bike lane.  He turns and heads back the way he came.  On Saturday, I am on the way to swim and pick up photos.  I stop into the 24-hour diner along the way.  I'm sitting behind a trio of middle-aged guys.  The other two are listening to the one next to me.  This guy is an expert on everything: military drone operations, Korea and Chinese troop movements, Russian snipers.  He's like a one-man episode of Homeland...in a grey camouflaged T-shirt.  Saturday is grey and not warm at all all day.  Sunday is different.  By the time I make it to the waterpark, the sun comes out, and it feels warm enough to swim.  It's the first day this year that I am here, and I don't want to leave.  In spite of the fact that i bought a small cup of ice cream and by mistake sat in a section reserved for a birthday party, before of course I was asked to leave the table.  After I get home, I head out for some Vietnamese crepes for dinner.  On the walk back through an alley, the sun throws its long summer shadows in a shade of orange as it sines through the forest fire smoke.  I pass one elderly Vietnamese guy with his right foot bent out at an odd angle.  He points to a piece of trash, and it sounds as if he tells me that it is my wallet which I dropped.  The next guy coming through the alley is a Hispanic guy with white hair.  He's hobbling along on a crutch, carrying dinner from the Chinese place.  He's in  Cuervo T-shirt.  I pass through an intersection of two alleys, down which I immediately spot a Caucasian guy in his thirties.  He's walking his dog.  I am so surprised to see one out on the street, both a Caucasian and a dog on a leash, that I say out loud, "Hes white.  He's white."  I follow him to see where he lives, if there is a new residence which has been built.  He appears to live in the building renovated into new apartments, across the street from where I live.
     Monday.  Yesterday was my late dad's birthday.  Tomorrow is my sister-in-law's.  This morning, it's 59 fucking degrees at the end of July, and I'm at the Sinclair station to grab some breakfast.  A clerk there always tells me the same thing in her monotone voice.  "Be careful out there honey.  People don't watch for bikes."  Yeah?  Well...I've got new bike shorts.  And new gloves.  Early birthday presents to myself, my own birthday arriving on Thursday.  But that's another month.  I catch my connecting bus to work.   Sitting in the back is a young woman asking another passenger where her stop is.  She mentions that she must complete 300 hours of community service.  "But that's okay," she claims.  As she goes on, it sounds as if she doesn't know much.  I wonder what she was like in high school.  She mentions something about her grandma.  What little I can make out from where I sit includes, "Thanks for everything," "Fuck you," and "I didn't mean to get a ticket."  I'm sure that a judge, or perhaps a prosecutor dispensing with pleas, has heard this already.  I never hear her mention a defense attorney.  After work, I get home as the sun is disappearing behind a romantic cloud of forest fire smoke.  I run into my next door neighbor, who also happens to be the HOA president.  Whenever this happens, we end up talking about the townhome complex.  This evening, he mentions something which I wasn't sure I was correct about.  He's Vietnamese, and he says to me, "I'm not sure if you want to go here, but let's go here."  I knew what he was going to say.  More Caucasian residents are moving into our little slice of the greater metro area.  He also verified my suspicion that new homes are being built here and there.  He mentioned a new clinic/hospital down the boulevard as a part of the greater neighborhood rise in value.  He likes the place, he doesn't like the street racing pickup trucks.  He's looking forward to a rise in property values.  I think he is tuned into such changes as he informs me that these new residents are coming here out of downtown.  The most interesting conversation about my neighborhood I've just has with a gay Vietnamese man.  His name is Tam.  I wonder, should the current character of this neighborhood eventually Caucasianize, who will be the next Tam; the next resident tuned in to its heartbeat?  What an interesting way to end a month.
     There's one more evening in the month however.  Tuesday.  I am at the bus stop in front of the Muslim doughnut shop.  Underneath the bench inside the shelter, curled up asleep, is an attractive young woman.  The first bus to come along has a full bike rack.  I have thirty minutes before the next.  I go grab some deathburger chicken and come back.  Before the bus arrives, a police car pulls up.  I don't believe anyone spotted her from a passing car, so I'm convinced someone called this one in.  A male office comes around to me to ask me if I am doing okay.  A female officer has to prod toe woman before she wakes up.  She appeared to be sleeping peacefully.  The officer asks her if she is doing okay.  The officer asks me how log she's been there, takes my name and birth date.  i expect him to take my address, but my doctor always asks me the same thing, what's my birth date.  Two days from now.  I tell him that she's cute.  He laughs and says, "Fair enough."  She rouses herself.  She must have been sound asleep.  She puts on a flannel shirt and makes her way down the sidewalk.  The police return to their car and leave.  I see my bus coming.  This one has an empty bike rack.  I step on board, and along the way, we pick up a grey-haired guy who is moving awkwardly and speaking with much difficulty.  He attempts to strike up a conversation with a couple sitting in front of him.  He asks the woman where she's from, asks her about a completely different state (She's from Florida, He asks her if she's been to Hollywood. I wonder if he thinks Hollywood is in Florida, perhaps confusing it with one of the Disney theme parks?), and then he reaches over to fist bump some guy with a walker who gets on.  The guy wit the walker gets out and i move to sit in his seat.  The guy taps my knee and wants to fist bump me.  I stare at him.  He asks me what's wrong, and becomes the second person this evening to ask me if everything in OK.  When he speaks, he sounds like a child.  i want to ask him the same questions which I imagine a life coach would ask, "Are you on this bus because you're going somewhere?"  Because, and this is important, I'm on the very same bus.  It makes me wonder where I am going.