Thursday, September 1, 2022

September 2022, "Why You Naked?", "It's Not Me.", "You Have to Put a Shirt On.", "Thank You...Okay? Thank You...Okay?", and Kicking Your Dog in a Wealthy Neighborhood





























      Thursday is the 1st.  I'm coming home from work, turning onto the block with the open field.  Coming down this block this morning, I saw the last lonely camper here.  Someone in a grey hoodie, a little guy with his hood on and tied tight, was working on the hitch where the trailer is attached.  It's early evening now and the sun is just disappearing.  Once again, a final camper has made its disappearance.  The block is yet again empty, save for a single lonely 2-liter bottle, half full of Pepsi.  I'm stopped and looking at this scene as another cyclist, this one with no helmet, comes whipping around the downhill corner on his electric bike.  Along the train tracks opposite the field, a locomotive has arrived.  The cyclist asks me, "Think I can make it?"  As in make the crossing before the train does.  I don't think all the batteries in the city will outrace the train.  The following day I have to work open to close.  And I've been staying late after close again.  This will be a good paycheck.  If I can keep from spending it.  I awake sometime around 3 AM.  I've come to the realization that I don't want to ride naked in the dark.  I'm not interested in exposing myself.  It isn't sexual.  I think that, instead of the idea that no outfit is a statement on neon Lycra cycling gear, something like a Speedo is more on target.  It's the least amount I can wear, and comply with the law.  Whis is something I much prefer to do.  Perhaps I can do some shopping this weekend.  As for this earliest of mornings, I decide to see who is out on the trail at this hour.  There are still people out there, even this early.  I pass three different cyclists, and a homeless couple.  On the connecting trail to work, I'm coming along the long park below the waterpark upon a hill.  Before I go through an overpass, I hear a dog whimpering.  I spy a pair of homeless walking in the grass.  A guy in shorts and a denim jacket has a leash in one hand.  Something is on the other end, which must be the dog.  The other figure is wrapped in a white blanket, making it difficult for them to walk.  The overnight lows are in the 50s F.  'Tis a ghostly figure who passes through this park before sunup.  On the other side of the overpass is a cart which must belong to them.  It's piled high with blankets.

     Saturday.  I wake up early again.  I can't believe that I'm not too tired to crawl out of bed.  On the way home from work yesterday, I watched a developing thunderstorm.  I've seen plenty of these of which nothing comes.  But after I get home, about an hour before my bedtime, I hear raindrops against my back sliding glass door.  I look through the door to see lightening all over the lace.  The rain turns to hail.  There wasn't any thunder that I recall.  I think about my Speedo idea.  I have the XXL bike shorts I purchased on sale which began falling down.  I decide to cut the legs off up to the padded crotch.  When I then try them on, it appears as if I'm wearing next to nothing.  I may as well be naked.  This isn't going to work.  But I have one pair of old bike shorts left, and I have a simpler idea.  On my way to work down the first stretch of trail, I try the practically non-existent pair of bike shorts just to see what I think.  Yeah, I think I look like I'm naked.  I stop in the dark before sunrise and change into my regular bike shorts.  Skip ahead to an hour and a half later.  The connecting trail to work ends at the end of a street, upon the corner of which sits a house.  It has a big pasture and horse stables.  A horse is outside by the fence.  It's around 6 AM and four teenagers are petting this horse.  I'm riding without a shirt, but I'm long back into my regular bike shorts.  But it's only here and now that someone, one of the teenagers, asks me, "Why you naked?"  Why are you guys petting a horse at 6 AM?  Fortunately for you, you don't know I was naked already.  Something out of character for me, left of center, out of the box such as riding naked has come back around to just another irony.  Such is my life.  You people!

     Well, the last holiday for the next couple of months is here tomorrow.  Today, Sunday, I hit the waterpark before lunch with the sister, who is back home from rehab and out of the wheelchair after a year.  Then it's back to the waterpark for another swim.  During the first swim, I'm in line at the drop slide.  A grade school aged girl in front of me asks me if I'm in lie.  I confirm this, and she instructs me to stand closer.  When it's my turn, she instructs me that it is indeed my turn.  During my second visit today, there is one particular kid of many with the mission of jumping into the shallow end.  This kid pretends to sneeze, ("Ahh ahh ahh...CHOO!") before jumping in.  He does this over and over.  Then it's off to the train for a ride to the station closest to the pizza place, a short ride away.  When I get there, I notice a customer coming out of the yogurt place next door with yogurt.  This the same yogurt place which, a week ago, had a sign in the window informing myself and a family that they were now closed Sundays and Mondays.  Or so we all interpreted.  When I first enter the place and ask the clerk about this, she informs me that today is her first day, and she has no knowledge.  Oh, I see.  I'm in a Twilight Zone episode.  I go next door and have my slice of pizza, and then return to the yogurt place.  There is now someone who appears to be supervising the first clerk, as well as another who also appears to be brand new.  I ask the one in the know, who simply informs me that the sign only refereed to Sunday and Monday of last week.  I knew they would get me...I just didn't know how.  Labor Day is a repeat of the day before.  Only I don't stop at the supermarket along the way to pizza and yogurt.  This may not have been the best year for the waterpark.  But, as usual, I had better keep my mouth shut.  The entire summer, I had the chance to swim every weekday before work, with the exception of Mondays.  And the final Monday, today, the park decided to be open.  So, farewell until next year.  I always joke about the weather turning south as soon as September arrives.  On Friday, the earlier part of the week's 100-degree F temperatures will drop to a high of 55.  And an overnight low of 35.  Four days after Labor Day and I need to make sure I have a new furnace filter.  But it's been a summer which has brought stability.  My Sunday pizza/yogurt routine is working with the new diet.  Don't ask me how.  I always wanted to try that pizza place, and it takes ma back some decades just to be in there.  They're called Cosmo Pizza.  After my second swim I head downtown to the traditional final summer festival.  It's held in a downtown park between the state capitol and the state house.  On one side of the park is the main branch of the public library.  The back end is closed for construction and the bike racks have been removed.  I head to the front where bike racks remain.  A festival security guy is attempting to shoo me away from there as he tells me this is the exit for the festival.  I finally convince him that this then is the perfect spot to lock up my bike.  As for the festival itself, it's the most pathetic thing I've ever seen.  This is the traditional summer city blowout.  I saw Blues Traveller bring the house down here.  And only half of the park appears to be used.  On one stage is a terrible local country music act, two guys with matching burlap cowboy hats.  But, like I've said, it's been a fortunate summer for myself.

     It's already Friday of the new week.  I'm coming home under an overcast sky, sometime after 7 PM. Right before the last golf course, past which I exit the trail, is a bend along the river.  It has a big playground.  It also has a relatively new public art installation.  It's a giant silver diamond shaped piece of metal suspended by cables between a couple of poles.  It's one of those public art commissions which appear more as engineering exercises than works of creativity.  Under the giant diamond is a little plaza area.  It's a sometime favorite place for the homeless.  This early evening, there appears to be a hibachi on the cement, in the center underneath the diamond.  There's a small gathering around the flaming hibachi, which include at least one guy who appears homeless as well as a middle-aged woman in a black pant suit.  I wonder if it's some kind of social service rep/homeless get together.  It's in the 50s F. out here, under a gloomy evening sky.

     ...fiction...evolved to accommodate...unprecedented changes...  The rise of industrialization fostered...large manufacturing towns and the spread of cities.   People were obliged to live among strangers to make their living.  ...a middle-class fiction...the Gothic fantasy.  One strong Gothic theme is that of descent from a "natural world" to inferno or incarceration...in search of a secret, an identity, or a relationship.  - B. W. Aldiss, Trillion Year Spree,1986

     [As for the] downtown...scourge of speeding [electric] scooters [available for use for a fee], the Denver Department of Transportation and Infrastructure is planning to grapple with the problem.  DOT also plans to test out technological ways tom restrict or slow scooters in certain parts of [downtown near the baseball stadium.]  "I saw people struggling...because their scooters had cut out and because of the no-scooter zone - but the kicker is there was no [baseball] game," says [a member of] the Denver Bike Lobby.  "...I've noticed scooters dying when crossing the [downtown pedestrian] Mall, and sometimes they are still in traffic."
     ...a community of immigrants and refugees...who land in Denver often live [in proximity to] a relatively large stock of affordable housing [near] many resources...  [They describe] a long line of senseless killings and shootings...  They talked about being hung up on when they called 911 or having to wait forever.  [Around there,] safety is never guaranteed, [with] violent incidents at least once a month...  [One resident] was 38 when he came to the U.S., he felt like a kindergartener because...he had to learn...the language and the culture.  "The questions that come in blow our minds...  'If I call 911, is my immigration status going to be questioned?'  'If I get stopped by a police officer, am I going to get deported?'  ...there's a steep learning curve."  ...a woman from Burma and her two children were struck in a hit-and-run...in 2013, soon after she moved [to the neighborhood.]  ...her two children were killed.  "...that woman...went back because of how bad it is."  ...the cost of living keeps them [in the neighborhood.  She] gets home from work around 7:30 p.m., and...starts hearing gunshots about an hour later.  "It's always somebody dying or somebody getting beat up...and it's always us refugees."  - Westword, 9/8-14/2022

     ...now corporation land, here named Government, took over state preserves, straightened crooked narrow roads...removed unwelcome...highway signs...till the young Pop eye of Art wept...where are our old friends?...and the streets of U.S. cities, gave of Urban Renewal, would be difficult, to distinguish...  For years he had been writing about [totalitarianism's] need to render populations apathetic, its instrument...the destruction of mood.  ...being sliced, cut, stamped, ground, excised, or obliterated...  - N. Mailer, "The Armies of the Night", from Reporting Vietnam, 1998

     Amazing how you can adapt to a life surrounded by thievery.  How you can accept as part of your lifestyle that fact that a huge number of people you live near would steal anything you've got lying around...  I ask you: What kind of man picks over the bones of a destroyed life?  ...a few junkie burglars are inevitable in any society...  - Rose

     On Aug. 9, the Ace Hardware [just a city block across town from me, where I would once in a while shop] announced that it would be closing.  "It is an exciting time for Denver's growth right now, and soon our location will become a multi-story residential development,"...the store's owner...said...  - Life on Capitol Hill, 9/2022

     Sunday.  I decide to grocery shop along the way to the sister's, and store a few things in her fridge. I leave my home and cross my boulevard, turning the first corner to the long street just a block from my own.  There's a brand new broad winding sidewalk along the open field which runs the length of this street.  I'm out late on this sunny morning.  There are a couple of handfuls of Caucasian people who are gathered at particular spots along this new sidewalk.  There are some kids here as well.  A couple of the men have post hole diggers.  WTF?  With the exception of the masses at the tennis courts to play pickleball, this is the most Caucasians I've seen in my 15 years in this neighborhood.  After lunch and helping her repot some plants, I head home with the groceries.  I took the train down toward her place, but I decide it's less hassle to ride home.  I get back home shortly before 5 PM.  I put away the food and head back out again.  I'm chasing down some kind of mural art festival in a fancy schmancy downtown art district.  I follow one of the city's main arteries north.  It takes me past the state capitol.  Out on the edge of the capitol lawn are a couple of signs.  "Atheist Iran."  "Democracy for Iran."  There's an Iranian flag draped over a low wall of flagstones.  But the site is abandoned.  It's not far by bicycle to the site of the festival.  I may arrive just as it closes.  I'm along the sidewalk, rolling through a small homeless village.  It has spilled out onto the sidewalk.  In the last remaining space on the sidewalk through which to pass is a guy in a T-shirt and jeans.  He's got a beard and hair down past his shoulders.  He could have stepped right out of 1973.  A homeless woman alerts him that I'm coming through.  He steps aside and hold his arms straight up in the air.  He acts as if I'm arresting him on suspicion of a crime.  "It's not me," he says out loud.  I turn down the street with the mural festival.
     This used to be a historic turn of the century neighborhood.  Five Points was an African-American community in Denver through two world wars.  The street I'm coming down late in the afternoon is one with bars for young Caucasian couples and massive condo units.  There are indeed murals on several buildings, and the murals are huge.  Very arty.  A couple of corners along the street have barriers blocking them off.  But there's no one out in the street except the occasional bar hopper, or scooter rider.  At one of the sectioned off corners, I stop and query a young woman packing up clothing she had for sale.  She appears and sounds as if she's a kind of nomadic hipster.  She tells me that she had heard there was supposed to be a mural festival.  She says, "It's nexus was" the direction from which I came.  I thank her and head back thatta way.  About this neighborhood, I'm obviously not tuned in to what the big deal is about Lower Downtown, or LoDo, or why it's at all artistic.  This street with the murals has a barren vibe with condos and bars.  Perhaps it's perfect for its current residents, I can't say.  I turn down to the next street and take it back the way I came.  This street has trees, lawns, and single family homes.  It's the adult reality behind the hipster faux depravity.  Soon I'm at my Sunday pizza and yogurt places.  At the pizza place, a couple of guys dressed in black come in.  They're young.  They don't order anything but just sit down.  I notice in the parking lot, what surely must be their car.  It's an old 1980s town car of some make, with tiny cruiser wheels.  The curious thing is, hanging from the rearview is a little Iranian flag.  Not long after, I'm coming back home after sunset, back down the same long street a block from my own.  I'm actually up on the new sidewalk now, to avoid the cars even now still out on the street.  I pass the spots where the handfuls of people were gathered this morning.  There are some new metal stands, with flat metal frames on top in the shape of music stands.  They appear as if they are waiting for information of some kind, perhaps historical, to be inserted.  Again, WTF?  Two mornings from now, I will be on my way to work back down this same street.  I will notice that one of them already got tagged with graffiti.  The struggle between the children of the original ethnic residents and the Caucasian pickleball interlopers and apparent financers of big winding sidewalks with possible historical markers has begun.

     But that's on Tuesday.  On Monday, I'm out the door and headed for the bank.  I'm at a corner a block away when I watch a minivan pull up to the stop sign.  The passenger side window is open and a young guy tosses a can out of the window.  I go through the intersection and watch a homeless cyclist pull out of the supermarket parking lot across from my bank.  His left hand is steering the bicycle.  His right is holding onto a stolen shopping cart as he pedals.  As with other homeless, he has no helmet.  he does have a straw in his mouth.  This will come up again late the next afternoon.  The cart does not have groceries in it.  It has what appears to be a pair of coiled garden hoses.  The shopping cart is not from the supermarket, but from a Sav-a-Lot up the street.  Clever.  Neither the hoses nor the cart are from the supermarket, so don't bother him pulling out of here, right?  The following afternoon after work, I detour from the trail to hit the gym.  I exit the trail into a parking lot for those neighborhood residents who wish to walk, run, or ride said trail.  It's been closed since perhaps last month to vehicle traffic.  I know not why.  A long chain bars the lot entrance and a sign alerts drivers to its closure.  I am able to ride from the lot onto the grass next to the sidewalk along the street on the other side of the chain, and then down the slanted curb onto the street.  Approaching the closed lot are a homeless couple on bikes.  Again, no helmets, and again the guy has a straw in his mouth.  He approaches the chain with a perplexed expression.  I've exited into a residential neighborhood.  Just around the corner I climb a hill.  A guy on some kind of motorized skateboard comes up behind me.  "He says to me, "How do?  I have a shirt just like that."  I'm wearing a neon yellow sleeveless cotton shirt.  I own two.  He's followed by a guy who appears almost identical to him, on his own motorized skateboard.  The motors sound electric.  They both are middle aged, tall, and have handlebar moustaches.  And neither has a helmet.  I say to the second one, "He says he has a shirt just like this one."  He ignores me, turning his head four different directions as he enters the other street.  I climb to the intersection and turn downhill to a busy street with warehouses on both sides.  A couple of blocks along and I turn again into a residential neighborhood.  At the next corner are perhaps twenty young guys in slacks and Polo shirts.  They're gathered around a map of what appears to be the surrounding six blocks displayed on a stand.  I hear one guy tell the others, "Okay, let's get started.  I know everyone is still signing in..."  I'm guessing they aren't with the homeless couple or the electric skateboarding twins, one of whom owns a shirt like the two I have.

     Wednesday.  I'm back on the street a block from my own, on my way to work.  There's grass between the new winding sidewalk and the curb all the way down the street.  The grass is lined with cherry blossom trees.  This morning, a group of four people are sitting around the base of one tree.  They are planting wood chips around all the trees.  Another group is gathered around one of the metal stands.  Everyone has green T-shirts.  Who the hell are these people?  The ride home from work is through some rain.  I think the shirtless rides are over until next year.  I get home after riding in my rain poncho, which keeps all bags covered.  Their contents are nice and dry.  The following morning, I'm getting out the door late, as I have for most of this week.  I'm actually leaving an hour earlier this morning, but need to be at work an hour earlier to cover for my coworker.  Today, I'm starting so late that my only option is the train to the bus, which will take me directly to work.  I get out at the station and wait at the bus gate.  I'm there perhaps ten minutes when a northbound train pulls up.  I suddenly hear someone say, "Go, go."  I look up to watch a shirtless young guy with long dark hair cross the tracks.  He sits on a bench and begins eating out of a small container.  Immediately a southbound train pulls up and he gets up to stand at the door.  He came north only to go back again?  The train stops and the doors don't open.  The conductor says through a speaker, "You have to put a shirt on."  The guy begins pacing and saying, "Fuckin 'bitch.  Fuckin' bitch.  Fuckin' bitch."  The conductor repeats, "Sir, you have to put a shirt on."  He opens the doors and the guy gets on.  Through a window, I can see him siting and eating.  He still has no shirt on.  My bus arrives, and the two guys who come on board with me are not as bad.  One guy spends the entire ride looking though his backpack for bus fare.  When we approach the stop for the other guy, he says to the driver, "Thank you sir."  He realizes that the sir is female and says, "Thank you ma'am."  The driver says nothing.  He then says, "Thank you...okay?  Thank you...okay?"  Shortly after I get to work, I run over to the bakery for my usual, diet soda and yogurt.  There's a typical local resident sitting at a table.  He has grey hair and kids with him, and he's reading a book titled, The Art of When to Trade.  Later on, per my new diet, I run out to the grocery in the shopping center for bananas.  I ride behind the rest of the center where there's no hustle and bustle.  There is however a lone middle-aged guy on a BMX bike.  He isn't sitting or pedaling.  He has his right foot on a footrest on the rear axle, and he's using it like a scooter.  I wonder if it's stolen.  he says to me, "Have a good day."  I should have replied, "Thank you...okay?"

     Friday. The cycle of the late starts and chronic taking the train to work has again been broken.  I out riding the entire distance.  I arrive at a point along the first trail where river surfers and assorted kayakers and spectators gather down by the diver.  Late in the morning there are a few parents and toddlers sitting on some semi-circular stone seating which I haven't noticed until now.  They are facing a woman who appears to be dressed as a wench from some old barkeep.  This in itself is strange enough.  I believe that she is in fact supposed to be a pirate.  She's standing in front of an easel, with the word "PIRATE" spelled in primary colors.  She speaks through a mic which is received by a small amplifier as she teaches the kids how to spell the word.  This is even more odd than the Surfin' Sasquatch cutout just a short few yards away.  And now ladies and gentlemen, a brief pair of asides if you will.  I don't enjoy throwing curve balls, perhaps such as admitting to riding naked.  But I want to mention having noticed for perhaps a year now, for the first time since 9/11, American flags on poles in the beds of pickup trucks.  I saw one this week or last on my own boulevard.  What is brand new are the pickup trucks out on my boulevard with Mexican flags, on poles in the beds.  I don't know if this is some kind of neighborhood war of the flags.  Speaking of street culture.  I've been working next door to a woman who cuts hair for perhaps a year now.  Her voice is so loud, I can hear her through the wall.  Recently, I've heard a dog barking inside her place., but have never seen it.  I once saw her in her doorway on her phone, using profanity.  And I see her walking to and from her vehicle on a regular basis.  She strikes me as being of a particular personal opinion; she thinks she's hot stuff.  She may be older than myself.
     I believe this afternoon I see her son.  A woman who isn't a customer came into work to inquire about getting a bridesmaid dress pressed today.  I told her it was unlikely we could do it.  So..she opens the door to exit....as the guy I believe is the son of the loud female barber is walking past.  It appears he may have just exited her place.  A dog is with him and begins to come inside where I work through the opened door.  The dog is not on a leash.  He tells the dog to come out of there.  Then something unexpected happens.  I've never seen this, and it takes the young woman exiting my store by surprise.  He kicks the dog, who yelps.  She tells him not to kick his dog.  I'm not surprised by the following reaction by either of them.  I wonder if by kicking his dog, he was trying to impress her.  He gives her a string of "fuck you'' and 'mind your own business bitch'.  She replies by telling him again not to kick his dog and calls him a piece of shit.  I watch her get into a BMW, not at all unusual for our clientele, and drive off.  The neighborhood is full of BMWs.  It has no other loud female barbers nor sons who kick dogs who come to mind.  The neighborhood is encountering the pair for the first time, in this particular way, by witnessing her son in action, just being who I assume is himself.  After walking the dog, her returns inside her place, and I can hear his voice now through the wall, complaining loudly about having been told not to kick the dog.  This is followed by the dog barking loudly for a long time.  I then watch him get into a truck with new temp tags from three months ago.  In the back is the dog.  In the seat next to him appears to be a twelve-year old girl.  The next time I step outside, it appears as if she's closed early.  As usual, she left the OPEN sign on.  The following day, it appears that someone turned the sign off.

     Sunday is another day of transport by bike only, instead of using the transit system.  I have no festivals of book sales to attend.  Laundry and grocery shopping is done.  No lunch to make for tomorrow.  I have nothing else to do after lunch with the sister, except get back home and complete some housekeeping chores.  Including installing the new supposed "allergen removing" two-dollar furnace filter.  Everything is so much prep for the coming week.  My new doctor, in our discussion about my return to an actual diet, asked me if I had experience preparing meals for work.  Is she kidding?  She has no idea how long I've been a bachelor, and the extent to which I've had to do everything for myself.  I concur with the sister, it's another beautiful day.  Three days before Autumn it's another week with highs in the 80s F.  I decide again to ride all the way to the pizza place.  While there, I come to realize that this establishment is headquartered in the city of Boulder, less than a hour's drive from Denver and home to a popular public university up there.  This explains the hippie vibe here.

     Forty percent of the city's streets have either missing or substandard sidewalks, the city reported in 2019.  If passed...the Denver Deserves Sidewalks campaign...would make the building and maintaining of sidewalks - currently a responsibility of private property owners - the city's problem.  It would also impose new fees on property owners...to repair and build new sidewalks across the entire city in just nine years.  - Washington Park Profile, 9/1/2022

     "I was so open to what would show up in the desert."  With no one in sight [, he] took off all his clothes and spent hours walking naked.  "I would just have my pushcart without my clothes."
[The street I ride, from the train station closest to my home, to my home]
     While it has...mixed-income and public housing, schools, [run down] grocery stores and a high-end bus route [actually, it has a pair of bus routes], it "largely ignores all aspects of pedestrian mobility"...  [I refer to it as the "bicycle superhighway" as it's one of only two or three avenues upon which one may even traverse the highway along the route described.  You must be tactical to cross the east one-way side of the divided highway with a bicycle, unless you cross these highway lanes from the other side of the avenue.  I wouldn't want to attempt it on foot.]
[The street I ride home from my Sunday pizza place]
     ...a transit/commuter corridor ..."one of the most dangerous" and "high-speed" stretches in Denver; it "largely neglects and dismisses the needs of pedestrian mobility as a connected, complete network"...  And the intersection [of two main arteries just a handful of blocks north of my home] is possibly the most dangerous in the city...  - Westword, 9/22-28/2022
     I have a history with the first route going back to the 15 years I've lived on this side of town, and a transit system history with the second route going back 28 years.  I thought my own corner was considered the most dangerous, according to some city report.  Not only is my neighborhood pedestrian unfriendly, but I've lost my street cred.  That's life in the big city.  Don't do the crime if you can't dot the time, oh baby.  And keep your eye on the sidewalk...

     It's Saturday before the last week of the month.  Yet another month has all but gone up in a puff of smoke.  'Twas only last Monday when I was lamenting no extra hours which I could see materializing this week.  And this is how extra hours materialize, out of thin air.  Tuesday evening, I stayed 2 1/2 hours at work after close.  The following evening, 3 hours after close.  Thursday I work all day.  The following morning I get called in 2 hours early.  It's a chilly ride there, so I wear a long-sleeved shirt, my new windbreaker and long pants.  I stay another hour and a half after close.  The ride home is much warmer and I carry the three items in a tote bag on my back, along with a couple of plastic bowls of chopped vegetables from the shopping center grocery where i work.  I'm on the exit ramp from the bike trail when I stop and take out the long-sleeved shirt to put on.  I put both the tote bag and my messenger bag with my wallet on the concrete.  With the warmer shirt on, I make sure to put the messenger bag back on, as I have forgotten it once before while removing a windbreaker.  It's perhaps 15 minutes to my front porch, where I realize that I left the tote bag and its contents on the exit ramp from the trail.  I'm too tired to return this evening to get it.  The following morning, I leave earlier, and it's colder, so I put on my warmer riding pants and another windbreaker.  On my back bike rack is the larger bag I take during the colder half of the year.  On the way to the trail, I approach the exit ramp.  Even in the dark I can see my tote bag is untouched where I left it.  When I leave work this afternoon...on time today...I will need every last inch of space for two windbreakers, two pairs of riding pants, an extra sleeveless shirt which I thought I would need, as well as the long-sleeved shirt.  Then it's off to the Black Eyed Pea for an early dinner.  A mom in the parking lot is speaking Spanish into her phone, attempting to determine if a family member is there at the other end.  Inside, I sit behind a pair of elderly women.  One is teasing the waiter about hiding the cornbread from her.  She then begins to tell her friend about her husband not appreciating being moved from one care facility to another.

     ...had the hippies met...the cutting edge of all primitive awe, the savage's sense of explosion - the fuse of blasphemy, the cap of taboo now struck, the answering roar of the Gods...connections made at the rate of 10th to the 10th exponent of the average rate of dialogue...had all the...nuclear transcendencies...exploded in some devil's cauldron from the past? - was the past being consumed by...nuclear blasts...into the collective living brain by the way of all [alcohol and narcotics]?  - Mailer

     "We call them food apartheids."  ..."a...policy of...political, social, and economic discrimination"...an area not being invested in...for many years...  "People should have food sovereignty."  ...many food rescue organizations do not request personal information...  ...insufficient government assistance...  ...a variety box filled with unfamiliar foods.  "Many food pantries didn't have fresh produce...what most immigrants and refugees prefer."  ...community members...speaking with local legislators about establishing neighborhood co-ops...  ...food rescue journey..."understanding where you are coming from.  ...to live in a country without knowing the language"...  - Washington Park Profile, 9/1/2022

   Tuesday of the following week.  My trusty bike is down to one brake, the high gear shifter is sticky.  And the last tech to work on my bike suggested that I bring it in for a tune up at the end of this month.  Well, it's the end of this month.  Three strikes, and I'm out.  So, after work I catch a bus to a train downtown.  I get out at a stop just yards from a trail to the sporting goods supercenter.  The stop is also across the street from a deathburger I used to frequent, back when I was coming this way to catch the first train long before sunrise.  When I worked for a previous employer.  Even when I was hired by another company here downtown, I still found myself across the street there.  Or at another deathburger or a Starbucks just a block away at a tiny strip mall.  Since then the homeless have migrated here.  That deathburger and the shopette have been "scraped" for some dazzling future development, of course right across the street from the train.  I decide to try and fit something from the remaining deathburger, next to a big gas station, into my new diet.  Then I'm off to the supercenter.  The trail there runs along the west side of downtown, below street level in a viaduct along a creek.  Mosaics and murals line the concrete wall enclosing the viaduct.  Homeless sit along the bank of the creek on this cool September evening.  The trail gets more crowded as I approach its intersection at the confluence of the Platt and Colorado Rivers, a place called Confluence Park.  It's a recreational area for the young urban crowd.  I'm across the bridge and wait at the front door of the supercenter for everyone to finish holding the door open for everyone else.  Out front is a mobile trailer with several doors to outdoor restrooms, each door with a light above it.  I don't know what this is about.  Children's chalk drawings cover the cement walkway.

     Inside, there's no line for the service department on a Tuesday evening.  The tech asks me if I am going to remove the bags on the bike frame.  I tell him that's my plan.  He gives my bike a once over.  He says there's grime in the front gears.  The gears and the brakes need "some love," says he.  Should be ready the 4th of next month.  I pack the bags into larger bags and hike over to the train station.  Along the way I navigate more people with dogs on leashes.  I climb the steps over the train tracks with a couple of guys, each with a dog on a leash.  Out on the train platform are a collection of folks in slacks and dresses.  They appear to have occupations in offices, and perhaps are out on the town.  On the high block, where the handicapped board, is a lone guy playing Mowtown hits from a mobile device.  Below him stand two or three couples.  One of the men asks him if he's taking song requests.  The guy tells them he just came from a convention he organized of 200 vendors.  "Adult film, cannabis..." he describes the exhibitors.  He also mentions that he organized the first local 4/20 festival.  (In 2014?)  Over the platform speaker come announcements that trains along the east line will be delayed thirty minutes.  It's yet another adventure with this station, coming back from dropping off my bike.  Trains are pulling in on both the outbound and inbound tracks.  The first two trains are westbound.  I could take one of these out to catch a bus straight down my boulevard.  Lately, I've been avoiding that particular corner out there.  Drug sales, drunks, homeless, and the street racers who love them.  A recent weekly newspaper article described this intersection as "inaccessible to pedestrian traffic."  Surely the least of its problems.

     The couples bid farewell to the adult film, 4/20, Mowtown guy and board a train for parts west.  I elect instead to take the other train, south to a bus which will then take me west.  The other way around, if you will.  I admit I'm more comfortable going by way of the train station I'm more familiar with than the drug deal corner.  My train pulls up and it fills with passengers.  Including a couple of homeless guys who take a seat on some steps in front of one door.  You ain't supposed to sit there. The homeless appear not so much to behave proactively against the rule of law, as much as they appear not to see themselves in the society governed by it.  They will stick together, but apart from the rest.  When we reach my stop, I have to step over them.  They apologize to me but make no mention of their presence on the steps.  At the gate for my bus, I'm approached by a young woman.  "When does the bus get here?  From which direction?  I'll help you watch for it.  My stomach hurts.  That's what happens when I drink.  I'm usually home 2 1/2 hours earlier."  Someone more brilliant surely could arrange her statements and questions into a manifesto.  The bus is ten minutes late when I get the feeling it may not show until the next scheduled arrival, which is another fifty minutes.  I elect to walk home.  I get to the next stop when I see it head toward the station.  In no time, it has "turned and burned," which means it has no time for the scheduled layover.  Onboard is the young woman, along with a guy she met at the station.  They are both in back yakking it up.  She gets out at a cheap apartment complex, what the newspaper article refers to as "affordable housing."  She thanks the driver for saving her "from the crazies."  Bus drivers: don't leave your affordable housing without them.

     The following morning, along the block with the open field, a newly arrived hybrid SUV is parked.  Twenty-four hours later, it will be gone.  Friday.  Last night, the coworker called me.  She needs me to work her shift.  The next morning, I wake up to my alarm clock.  I almost never need it to wake up early, so I set it for the exact moment when I would otherwise be leaving the house to get to work with a comfortable margin of being on time.  I glance online at the transit system schedules to see what my options are.  I opt for the train...again.  I get to the train station and miss one train by four minutes.  The next one will still give me a fighting chance.  And in fact, I make it to work with 6 minutes to spare.  After a full day at work, open to close, I get out on time.  I'm stepping out the door and I have to step out of the way of a homeless kid.  He's in a mismatched collection of garments.  And...he's carrying a couple of golf clubs, called drivers.  I've seen other homeless with golf clubs.  No, i don't get it.  The guy is making his way along the line of businesses.  I briefly watch him as he turns a corner.  he appears to be checking trash cans.  We must have really good garbage.

Wednesday, August 3, 2022

August 2022, Drunk Woman in My Parking Lot Bares Her Ass on My Birthday, "Peoplegotnocommonsense...", and "Kill That Motherfucker."












     "...I just drove from the other side of town, and [my boulevard] is beat up.  No coffee shops, but I can't tell you how many pawn shops and liquor stores.  ...no grocery stores.  The streets are all jacked up.  Damn, those tags have been on that wall forever.  ...the worst thing is...people walking around with their heads held low.  ...If there ever was a physical manifestation of the discrimination in which we live, here it is.  ...a place...where we can mail a ballot.  We've gone to homeless camps...  It can literally be 'the corner of Colfax'...  That can be your home.  We need to meet with the elders in the Vietnamese community.  You can't expect people to come to the government.  I fought like hell for my [and my] district...  We barely moved the needle.  If you don't vote, if your turnout's low, they ain't gonna spend the money where you're at."
     In 2012...I wrote a lot about potholes and traffic; that part of [my boulevard] hasn't changed much despite years of construction to add lanes, build medians and improve intersections.  - Westword, 8/4-10/2022

     ...the focus of a June "Washington Post" story [was someone] who drives the 15 bus on the [infamous] Colfax Avenue for [the transit system, and] whose face is featured on the side of some buses...   {The author noticed] that crime on public transportation was increasing around the country.  "Denver is struggling...with the opioid pandemic, rising homelessness...up by 50 percent since before the pandemic...rising crime rates."  When [the featured driver must] call paramedics...other riders yell at her because they're delayed.  Sometimes she feels like she's a community help wagon on wheels...  ...in April [the transit system] realigned its security personnel into...community engagement, and mental health and unhoused outreach.  "Following a data-driven approach...allows [the transit system] to deploy security personnel in the areas of greatest need.  ...the agency is...upgrading its onboard cameras..."  [Before this month,] all [transit system] drivers got training on how to identify and assist people with mental health problems.  - Westword, 8/25-31/2022

      I read online the WP story mentioned above.  It could have been a page from this blog, complete with the story's photos.  Monday.  Coming home from work.  This summer, I haven't been riding to work as much as taking the transit system, because of a time crunch.  I've been doing the ride all the way home much more.  I'm coming up the block with the open field.  The last homeless vehicle here was a single pickup truck piled high with junk.  This evening, it's gone, again leaving a block empty of homeless dwellings.  The following morning is my birthday.  I board a train with a homeless guy carrying a rolled-up carpet.  The day goes past in a blur.  I have not enough sleep and it's a busy one at work.  I'm pulling into my parking lot after work to find a drunk woman on the curb in front of my courtyard.  I put my bike onto my porch and go back out to the mailbox.  As I return, the woman has pulled down her pants.  She turns over to stand up and her butt is exposed.  I wonder if this is her way of asking the world to kiss her ass, as she proceeds to wader the parking lot saying "Fuck you," with long pauses in between.  The following morning, I've had plenty of sleep.  The sun is out.  I do a swim before work.  It's the ride home which reveals a mix of characters out on the trail.  There's the guy with his toddler daughter, out on the first trail home.  Around the bend is a guy doing pushups in my lane of the trail.  Ahead a homeless guy comes up onto a bridge from below.  Underneath an overpass is a pair of guys with another female child.  The trio are all looking up at something.  I approach the junction with a connecting trail.  A guy is walking along as if he's busting out hip hop moves.  Just before he realizes I'm behind him, I hear him say to no one, "You fucking trying to get somebody killed?"  Onto the connecting trail home is another rollerblading couple.  Friday.  On the way home.  I'm out on the trail passing under the second to last overpass before I exit the trail. Leaning up against the wall below the overpass is an electric bike.  It appears abandoned., obviously having run out of charge.  I wonder if it's passenger was homeless?  Saturday.  My new favorite way to work on Saturdays is the train.  It the station this morning, it's just about 7 AM.  On the far platform is a homeless guy with an electric guitar.  He's dressed in black and looks like a punk rocker from 40 years ago.  He appears to have a couple of small amplifiers, and even has his own homeless roadie helping with one of the amps.  The guitar guy gets onto the high block and boards the train when it arrives.  After work, I detour to the waterpark.  I run into someone I worked with for a decade, and I haven't seen in seven years.  She lives in my neighborhood.

Peoplegotnocommonsense
     Sunday.  I jump on the train for a few stops along the way back to the waterpark.  Then it's off to the sister's place to celebrate my birthday which was on Tuesday.  Then it's back to the waterpark for another swim.  Then it's back to the train for a trip to the pizza joint next to the yogurt place.  Then a ride home before I go back out to the bus stop.  I still have grocery shopping to do.  The bus pulls up.  Someone gets out.  I step through the front door.  I've been an audience member to fifteen years of drama out on this broken-down boulevard.  This Sunday summer early evening, I just stepped into the middle of it.  Suddenly, there's a guy with a fucking German Sheppard on a harness trying to get around me.  I step back off as the young driver is telling me, "Peopletryingtogetoff.  Peoplegotnocommonsense.  Peoplegotnocommonsense."  He sounds just like the street people with mental issues who ride these very buses.  Is one of them driving this one?  I decide not to ask.  A week ago, I was coming home on my bike from the very same supermarket.  I was on a sidewalk to avoid traffic.  I carefully watched to see when I could enter traffic, which I then did.  I checked my rearview and then ahead before making a U-turn.  A minivan stopped in the opposite lane.  A Caucasian asks through the driver's side window, "Waddya doin'?"  Well, if you ask the transit system sir, apparently peoplegotnocommonsense...  If there was no common sense yesterday evening, there somehow is less than none the following morning.  After a nice overnight rain fell, on the flowers I planted in my garden which I planted to replace the ones which died, I get a call to come in to work early.  I realize that I may just make a bus which will take me directly to the shopping center where I work, and do so with time to get breakfast even before I begin my shift early.  Never mind sense, anything for money, right?  I can make this bus...if I can beat my best speed from my door to the bus stop.  This means running every stop sign all the way to the trail, on the trail, off the trail, over the highway and up to the next boulevard beyond my own.  I don't even hit the brakes once.  My path still takes me past the block along an open field.  A newly arrived solitary camper sits smack in the middle of the block.  I make the bus.  When I get on board, I take off my helmet.  My hair is still wet from my shower earlier this morning.  I don't get time to hit the gym before work, but I get there after work.  I'm digging in my bag on a bench at the front door when a young guy comes out.  He stops and says, "Look at that moon!"  I look around to determine if he's speaking to me.  He appears to be.  The moon is as ordinary-looking as any I've ever seen.  He tells me it looks "fucking amazing."  He explains the importance of "appreciating these little moments in life."  Workout complete, I'm soon across the street for a train home.  A homeless guy on the platform comes tunning up to me.  He wants to know the time.  I glanced at the clock at the gym.  It's probably ten after 8 PM.  Five minutes later, he asks me again what time it is.  I reply that it's five minutes later.  "Five minutes later than what?" he queries.  His train arrives and he says to me, "See?"  (?)

     Mondays, the waterpark has been closed this season.  Yesterday I didn't make it there before work either.  I did so Wednesday morning.  I also had to hit the bank first, and I'm lucky I did.  When I get to work, I discover that my coworker is out.  She calls me later on to ask me if I can cover for her the rest of the week.  This is the last week that the waterpark will be open on weekdays.  It will then be open on weekends only until Labor Day.  I always sit and lament at the beginning of the week that I won't get any extra hours, then the extra hours drop into my lap.  So, it's goodbye to my weekday swims until next summer.  After work, I stop by a Chipotle for a quick dinner.  I sit and eat, and watch a couple of homeless on the median of the boulevard outside the window.  An older panhandler is speaking to a younger little homeless guy.  The panhandler is moving slowly. The little guy has a restless gait, moving out into the street, over to Chipotle's patio where he has his bicycle stashed, and back across to the opposite side of the street.  He has a plastic bottle of soda in a back pocket and an unlit cigarette which moved around between his lips and two fingers.  Soon I'm back out on the bike trail home.  Just after I connect with another trail, I pass through something which I've never seen there.  It's a brand new big metal gate and post.  I look around at a sign on the other side of the gate.  "Trail closed," it reads.  The following day, I notice another gate some yards past this one.  Thursday morning is day one of two days in a row in which I am working for my coworker.  Open to close.  Yesterday was my last day of the season swimming during the week.  This morning before sunrise, I encounter ghostly apparitions out on the trail to work.  I'm climbing an incline out of an underpass in the dark.  There's the guy coming down and silently waving at me in an attempt to get my attention.  He does this instead of move out of the way.  Further along, I can make out a female in a sleeveless blouse and shorts.  Her body appears pitch black in the dark as she slowly shuffles along.  When I get down along a big golf course, I hear a woman screaming and ranting off in some bushes along the river.  I turn onto the connecting tail, where a think individual in a black 3/4 length coat makes his way down the trail.  I'm riding shirtless to enjoy the cool morning before sunrise.  Not this pedestrian.  Yesterday afternoon, I passed out on the trail two separate young guys in hoodies with their hoods on, in 90 degree F heat.

     On Saturday I'm just onto the trail to work.  I'm down along the bank of trees by the river.  At the spot where I always see him in the Park Ranger.  He's walking his bike and has his sunglasses on before the sun is up.  After work, I'm on the way home.  I'm turning onto the block with the open field.  I believe that the lone camper was here this morning.  By the afternoon, it's gone.  Sunday.  Yesterday afternoon and this morning, I grab a swim at the waterpark.  After another lunch at the sister's, I ride to the nearest train station where I just miss the train.  I make the short ride to the next station, which is also the location for the seat of government for this municipality.  An article in the Fall 2022 Englewood City Magazine and Recreation Guide mentions this station, called CityCenter.  The article discusses what has worked in this mixed-use complex (the apartment units) and what didn't (the retail shops), and what needs to be revamped.  The article makes no mention of the homeless who collect here, such as those this afternoon.  I have a busy day today.  I'm first headed to drop off some film.  I grab a bus which whisks me to another station.  From there I catch a train which whips me to the boulevard with the camera shop.  I get out and into an elevator with a street guy.  We exit at the street level.  Right outside the elevator door is a guy on a bike.  He asks the street guy if he's okay.  The street guy says something to the other, who points and directs him toward a guy in "brown shorts.  The guy in brown shorts.  Brown shorts."  I do the short ride to the camera shop and return right back here again.  Back down on the platform is a homeless guy asking a passenger if he wants a beer.  "Why not?" replies the passenger.  As he takes a swig from a can, the homeless guy tells him, "Kill it.  Kill that motherfucker."  Next stop is the pizza place for dinner.  '90s rock blasts out of the sound system.  A couple of dizzy sorority-types pick up a pizza to go, running in giggling and running out again.  Next stop is the sporting goods supercenter.  I haven't yet done the ride from here to there, and I completely effing forget that all I have to do is hop onto a trail which will take me right there, and the trail is just yards away.  Instead I ride back to the train...and take it to the very same trail.  Because...peoplegotnocommonsense.

     ...(including co-running two successful Big Queer Beerfests with Lady Justice Brewing)...  ...[to Town Hall Collaborative]...it was nice to really support another female owned business.  I'm hiring...the brewer at Ratio, the head brewer at Renagade - total badass.  Summit County area.  There's...space for breweries that are trying to be more creative and inclusive.  ...breweries there...I'm one of the only women there, let alone a queer person.  ...when I was bartending...any time a new female drinker would come in, I would have them...experience how dynamic our tap list was.   and high-profile food trucks.  ...we've hired [a] local designer...just a true badass.  - Westword, 8/18-24/2022

     The brakes need adjusting again on the bike I take to work, which is why I'm riding it today.  And I recently purchased a new pair of cycling shorts.  And though they were on sale, XXL is just too large.  And this is not the only reason they are falling down.  It's time to mention here my new doctor. She's decided that the time has come to do something about the final 20 lbs. I need to lose.  For some years now, I've been running around pretending that not eating carbs, but eating as much as I want, is some kind of a diet.  My new diet, good old-fashioned portioning according to recommended daily allowances, is working.  I now have the digits which I need in my head, how much protein, grains, fruit, veggies, and dairy per day.  And I need cycling shorts which fit.  When I arrive, I speak with a tech about the brakes.  We discuss my bike at some length.  He suggests I get a tune up in a month and a half, and a new chain which I decide to get now.  He recommends a simple block chain instead of a high performance one, for commuting.  And he wants me to oil my chain every week or two, and to clean the chain first with a solvent, which I've never done.  It's always something.  I ride down a trail back to my boulevard and a bus stop known for its popularity with this street's unique brand of street people.  We're some distance physically, and a far greater distance culturally, from the giddy young city-dwellers who frequent the pizza shop and its minimum wage caretakers.  This is the corner of aging gang members and young kids making drive up dope connections.  I don't see any guns, but someone has a shiny walking cane.  Some middle-aged guy next to me keeps whistling at an even more disenfranchised lot of derelicts at the stop directly across the street.  The bus gets be back home just after closing time for the lady who cuts my hair.  I'm satisfied with what I accomplished.

     Monday.  This afternoon through tomorrow will see a downpour.  After work, I ride home in the rain, wading through waist-deep water below an overpass.   I decide to ride in only my shorts and no shirt instead of my poncho. The following morning, I ride through rain to work.  Along the thoroughfare next to the river, three different cars appear to honk at me.  Because I'm riding in the rain?  It's let up on the ride home.  At the aforementioned overpass, the water level has dropped a bit.  I do another wade only to find that a tree has fallen across the incline out of here.  I haul my bike over the trunk and break some branches off to get around it.  The branches are brittle and offer no resistance.  The mud under the water sucks at my sandals.  I get going again and pass a guy going toward the tree.  He comes back and passes me again, mentioning something about this being an "adventure."  Onto the connecting trail home and up along a bank of trees.  I pass one German Sheppard off leash, and approach a second which barks at me as I pass it.  I wonder if one or both belong to the occupant of a camper shell in a small parking lot off the trail.  Soon, I'm of the trail and approaching the street with the open field.  There must be some popular band out at the Levitt Center this early evening.  Traffic is backed up looking for a place to park.  A big parking lot has a sign I've never seen, offering parking for twenty bucks.



     The following morning I decide not to pull out my poncho and ride in only my shirt in the rain.  Once I get out on the trail, I consider riding naked.  Surely there will be no one else out here in the rain.  Then another cyclist, bundled up in rain gear, passes me from behind.  Further down the trail, a woman is out running in a soaking T-shirt and shorts.  So much for no one else being out on the trail.    Wednesday morning the rain has let up.  Someone removed and chopped up the tree across the trail.  On the way home after work, I climb the hill off the street with the open field.  At the top is the most broken down and dented small pickup truck from the 1980s which I've ever seen.  The bed is piled high with junk.  Thursday at work, I step out of the door to toss some trash.  An employee from just a couple doors down is outside.  He points to his car with the front passenger side window smashed.  He tells me that he ran to the bank at the opposite end of the shopping center.  Someone followed him back here after he made a withdrawal.  He must have been at the ATM outside.  He didn't even get the door to his place unlocked before someone jumped out, smashed his window, and grabbed his $700 from his glove compartment.

     We all deserve the freedom to get from [point] A to [point] B safely, no matter how we choose to get there.  ...residents should have access to everything they need to survive and thrive within a 20-minute walk, bike or roll.  ...we must have places where people want to live, and...businesses and destinations that people want...near those homes.  - Denver Herald, Weel of 8/18/2022

     "...we have focused on [urban] design and then we ebb away from it." Denver's first chief urban designer.  [She is able] to heavily consider " community and social equity" in urban design...  [The park between the state house and the capitol in Denver] in September 2021...was closed for...people...during the day dealing and doing drugs.  ...now...all Denver parks [are] off limits after 11 p.m.  [At the bus station in Denver's central transit hub,] "homeless...who...shelter there [become] prey to drug dealers."  - Westword, 8/18-24/2022

     ...a shaley hilllside...a cave...whirls by.  A village on stilts is wading into a lake.  A...city with mud walls.  A pyramid...  A ziggurat.  ...fortifications...palisades...temples...mausoleums.  Tombs, towers, universities.  - Trillion Year Spree, B. W. Aldiss, 1987

     Sunday.  The sister had her first joint replacement on Thursday.  I won't be going to her place this weekend.  Actually, it's nice to have the entire day.  The morning appears overcast, but I put on sunscreen as I suspect it will burn off.  Indeed, I do a swim in blue sky and sunshine before hitting the gym.  In between, I ride to a Black Eyed Pea for lunch.  It's on my new diet.  Then I ride back to the train, to a supermarket to pick up items I forgot yesterday.  Then it's off to get a slice of pizza for dinner at my new favorite pizza place, before I top it off with some yogurt from next door.  I head home, and before bed, I go for a snack across the street.  It's a Mexican seafood place which used to be a long time Mexican grill.  I find an item which fits my diet.  The following day, at work I don't feel hungry after lunch until close enough toward close, that I decide to return to the Pea for dinner this evening.  It's on the way home from work.  It strikes me that restaurants around the metro area are like neighborhoods.  Each one serves its own socioeconomic class of patrons.  Which brings me to my childhood, which I spent from the sixth grade on in Oklahoma.  In its third largest city.  Stepping into the Black Eyed Pea, at least this one, is to walk through a portal straight back to Oklahoma in the 1980s. The clientele is plain, rural, primarily elderly, and many are heavy-set.  I watch a family of four come slowly and quietly in.  The eldest is a teenager with his hair parted in the middle and curled bangs.  His hair is matched in plainness only by his blank black T-shirt.  His face is an expressionless mask.  He would fit right in with my high school class four decades ago.  Grey-haired women, all in sweaters in the middle of August and polyester slacks, are slowly carrying out Styrofoam take out boxes.  I watch a bent over guy in a plaid buttoned down shirt, khaki shorts, white socks and tennis shoes as he makes his way toward the front door.  Other women are in sack-shaped summer dresses.  These folks could be transplants snatched from my senior year of high school and dropped here now.  Except that, on average, four decades ago they would have been in their twenties.  How did they turn into carbon copies of their grandparents from a neighboring state?

     On Wednesday, I'm on the way to work and turning onto the block with the open field.  The street off of which I'm turning has a newly arrived camper toward the top of the hill.  The block along the field has newly arrived RV.  It's hitched to a used pickup truck.  The driver is along the RV, cranking something on the middle of the side.  When I come back this way after work, the pickup is gone.  I suppose he was unhitching the RV.  A closed pop-up trailer is now in front of the RV.  The following morning, I'm out before sunrise, headed to work open to close.  There is a camper now behind the RV.  The camper has a light on inside the back window, behind a curtain.  The pop-up is now deployed.  A new set of dwellings has yet again returned.  A couple of days later, a tent will appear between the back of the camper and the front of the RV.  A police cruiser from the traffic division is parked behind the trailer hitched behind the RV.  On the sidewalk next to the RV, a child runs around.  A female voice tells him to come back inside.  At the end of the week, on Saturday we close an hour early so we can all attend the first ever company function.  It's a picnic in a park not far from our plant.  The following day is a busy one.  I'm out on my bike the entire day.  I leave around 11 AM and the day is perfect for a swim.  But I make the mistake of scheduling this at the end.  I decide instead to hit the pizza place for lunch first.  I ride the entire way, and a few blocks from there I run smack into an outdoor art festival.  I spend some time there before having a slice of pizza.  After that, I go next door to the yogurt place.  They have new hours this week.  They are closed Sunday and Monday.  I won't be back here until they reopen on Sundays, if they ever do.  Then I'm off to visit the sister after her successful surgery.  She's back for a couple of weeks where she was for a couple of months, before the surgery.  I'm at the counter of a deathburger, next to the rehab place.  A guy comes in to ask to use the bathroom, when he's told he must make a purchase.  I purchase a soda on this warm day.  I call the sister who wants her own soda.  I'm back at the register, where the employee is confused whether I want a refill or another soda.  "Are you waiting for something?" she asks me.  Another guy comes inside.  "What's the code for the bathroom?" he asks.  He gets the same answer.  He acts surprised.  It's these two guys against the world, or in this case, a single bathroom.  I watch them walking out in the parking lot.  In the lot of the rehab place is a guy asking for change.  "I want to get a new inhaler," he tells me.  After a quick visit with the sister.  I ride down to a shopping mall with a yogurt place which is open on Sundays.  I then hightail it to the waterpark.  I watch a huge cloud moving in.  I make it in an hour, which means I have an hour to swim.  As soon as I hit the front gate, I hear lifeguard whistles blow in unison.  A flash of lightning was seen.  The weather report isn't good and they decide to close an hour early.  This place was more consistent a couple summers ago, when COVID shut everything down.  I head for the gym, a short ride away.  I get there seven minutes after the close.  And they won't be open for a week, due to annual cleaning.  I hit Chilis for dinner and ride home.  I'm crossing the intersection to the corner where I live when I hear a voice through a bullhorn.  Something about, "...you can't slow down that fast."  I don't know who it is, perhaps the police?  Are they speaking to me?  I'm the threat?

     Monday.  I'm opening again for my coworker.  I wake up early and am out the door at 4 AM.  Lately, the overnight temps are back into the 50s F.  Only here in Colorado.  After sundown, before sunup, and on overcast days I have been riding shirtless as well as without sunscreen.  I do this only because I'm not limited then to being so covered up.  I keep with this pattern as I'm out of the door.  I don't know the temperature this early morning, but on downhill acceleration, the cold wind actually causes my teeth to chatter.  I'm soon out on the trail and down among the riverbank with a line of trees.  There is a limited stretch of trail where there are trees on both sides, and the trail is in complete darkness.  I decide to remove my bike shorts and ride nude.  This is a kind of statement, that not wearing anything is one less thing I have to worry about in my life which more and more appears crowded with details.  And it's a response to so many of those out here who all make sure to wear their neon Lycra racing gear.  My vehicle is human powered, and my outfit is my body, which isn't an outfit.  Oh well...  I like riding nude, as long as no one else has to see it and possibly be disturbed by it.  Therefore, I put the shorts back on before I break out of the trees and the dark.  After work, coming home, I exit the trail and turn the corner onto the block with the open field.  All homeless dwellings again are gone, except for the first of the most recent ones to arrive, the camper with the trailer hitched behind.  Both Tuesday and Wednesday, I end up staying late again at work after close.  And Friday I'm opening again.  Another nude ride...?
     

Friday, July 1, 2022

July 2022, "It's Okay Here, Everything Is Okay."















      The Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence are...an order of queer drag queen nuns...wearing nun habits...  "I was a homeless youth once"...  - Westword, 6/30-7/6/2022

     "We need to have a caring, empathetic and sympathetic voice for our homeless...I don't think there's a place in Castle Rock to have a shelter."   ...initially [there were] included bathrooms [as part of a Denver suburb commission plan] acquiring 17 temporary [homeless] shelters...  [One commissioner] said he wasn't interested in including them.  The county is also planning...a signage campaign asking the public not to hand out cash to people experiencing homelessness.  "We...are so early on this...we can nip it in the bud and get to functional zero.  ...we can get pretty darn close to...this [as] the safest, cleanest, crime free community..."

     Highlands Ranch first-ever drag comedy show carried on despite the roughly 50 protesters who gathered outside the...Rec Center...  - Highlands Ranch Herald, Week of 6/23/2020

     Friday is the 1st.  It begins with my racing out the door.  I want to hit the gym and the waterpark before work.  I'm headed down my street and across the boulevard.  A pair of homeless guys are walking ahead of me in the bike lane.  One of them waves at a minivan in the middle of the street.  It appears almost as if the left front shock absorber has collapsed.  Behind the minivan is a car waiting for the homeless guys to move so it can pass.  I get up onto the sidewalk and pass the entire scene.  I make a break for the train and take it down to the gym.  Inside, a woman in a hijab is cleaning the glass outside the handball court.  A grey-haired player has his gear on the floor in front of the glass.  She asks him to move it. Instead of moving it, he tells her that it's "okay here.  Everything is okay."  (?)  After a workout it's off to the waterpark and then on to work.  I stay an hour after close.  On the way home, right before the last bridge over the river, up the street is a new line of three homeless campers.  The following day is another Saturday.  Yes, we are open.  Yes I am working.  But after work, I'm headed down a newly scouted turn to an outdoor pool.  I'm coming down a walkway and bike trail along a highway.  Coming toward me is a middle-aged guy.  He's pushing a small stolen shopping cart.  It's the cart of choice for the homeless.  Laying across the cart is a bicycle.  He asks me how far it is to a neighborhood east of here.  It's a neighborhood my sister used to live in.  I tell him its three city blocks, and there is a bus he can catch there, straight down this highway.  He tells me that friends dropped him off at the intersection of this busy avenue and Interstate 25.  That's not far behind him.  He tells me that they continued on to Pueblo, which is at the bottom of the state.  He doesn't say why they dropped him here to push this cart with the bike, or if they brought the cart along with him, which is unlikely.  I leave him with his narrative and continue on to the pool.

Weird Fucking 4th

     Sunday, I run out of the door, headed for the train.  At the station, I am in the process of validating a transit system ride coupon when I spy another middle-aged guy with a bicycle.  I don't recall seeing him with a helmet.  He may have had a hat with a brim.  He's on a bench and asks me an existential question.  "Is that a seat or a cover?"  He speaks of the bike I ride on the weekend.  I tell him it's both a seat with a cushioned cover on it.  He tells me, "It looks comfortable."  The train swoops me to a station from which it's but a short ride to the waterpark.  I'm not there long, I would have stayed, but I'm due to assist the sister in more shelving of books.  She now has all of her books out of storage for the past seven years.  After the early afternoon there, I head back to the train to a station from which I make my way crosstown.  I ride all the way to where my home of fourteen years stood, where now a pair of giant two-story duplexes stand.  There are more new condo units among the old homes.  I ride back down to the big art fest.  It's in a well to do neighborhood.  The clouds rolled in before I left the sister's.  It's a curiously quiet and empty festival.  It's toward closing time.  Only one side of some streets have booths.  The following day, I think I'm going downtown to a giant comic/movie/superhero convention.  It turns out there is no convention today.  I walk around the entire circumference of the huge center where it's advertised to be.  Every door has the same sign: "No entry through these doors.  Have fun!."  I spot a maintenance guy at one door.  We converse in Spanish.  The entire complex is closed today.  I suspect that the convention was Friday through yesterday.  There is no pool open.  I will find out, after I get home, that there is no big deal art festival today either.  ...on July 4th.  Okay.  Glad I went there yesterday.  Well, at least I had a good ride.  I return home my way of a route out of downtown, which takes me over a train crossing.  The gate is up and there are no trains.  Yet an approaching vehicle is barely moving in the other lane.  The driver immediately strikes me as homeless.  His window is open, and as I pass him, he tells me that he can't wait until civilization has bicycles which operate themselves.

     I drop my weekend bike at home and assemble what I need for work tomorrow.  Then I am out the door to the sister's place.  I haven't been home for the evening of the 4th of July since two years ago, when I was up through the night listening to the neighbor next to my townhome.  He was launching fireworks.  Around 5 PM, I head for the train station where I grab a bus.  It drops me not far from work.  I head to work and get there shortly before 6, where I put some food in the fridge and leave my wardrobe for tomorrow.  Then it's off to the sister's place.  I'm there in about an hour where we have a little dinner.  I help shelve some more books before we watch a few fireworks from her front porch.  It's turned from a 96-degree F.-day into a nice evening.  Though I sleep on her floor, I have a fine sleep.  I make breakfast and we eat it out on her back patio.  The morning is the best part of the entire weekend.  Out on her patio, it's a nice cool morning.  A couple of hours later I'm at the waterpark, when it's already 91 degrees F.  I'm locking up my bike at the stand when a lifeguard comes whizzing up on an electric bike.  Another lifeguard comes over and asks him about it.  He replies that this one is an older model, about $3,000.  He says he had a newer one with all the extras.  He says it was stolen, and worth $4,000.  Thursday.  Methinks it was last week.  A small homeless trailer has shown up on the street a block from my own.  The street was clean for perhaps most of this year.  Coming home this evening past the damaged guard rail along the trail.  A homeless car has arrived.  And at the turn across the last bridge over the river, some yards down the street along the trail, a homeless car is visible.  Again, I think it was last week, three homeless dwellings I spotted where the car is now.  Just before the damaged end of the guardrail, out in the middle of the trail, a scene is taking up most of both lanes.  A homeless couple is gathered around a small motorbike, a bicycle (both on the ground), and a heavy metal cart.  It appears much too heavy for the little motorbike.  The lady stands over the motorbike as the guy works on it.  I spot it all in the distance as another cyclist comes up behind me.  I stop and let her go first around them.

     Before...Denver launched an e-bike rebate program on Earth Day...the typical e-bike purchasers had been Baby Boomers.  Now the demographics...have dropped by 25 or 30 years...  [Parts of a couple of bike trail routes which I ride twice a day] are...popular paths...  Some bike purists [...is that me?] don't appreciate seeing e-bikes on these trails, which they're already sharing with walkers, hikers, rollerbladers [only recently] and sometimes even horses.  [As far as the horses are concerned, I ride part of an actual horse trail, in a neighborhood zoned for horses.  As for the "popular paths", don't forget the electric scooters, those on boards with a single wheel in the middle, and at one point skateboarders in wetsuits carrying surfboards.  And as far as "walkers", it is a "pedestrian and bike trail".  Most walkers have dogs with them.  But perhaps most glaringly missing from this story, though not directly a part it, are the homeless out on the trail.  They appear to make their own converted motorized bicycles using what sound as if they are gasoline powered engines.  Those would be, what, g-bikes?  They don't need no rebates.]  "...a lot of e-bikers do not call out their pass.  And some of the e-bikes...are whisper-quiet - you can't even hear them coming."  [I don't "call out my pass either.  Something the homeless especially don't appreciate, at least from me.  One of my bicycles used to rattle and clatter.  Pedestrians couldn't even hear that bike coming.]  While the trails are great for...sometimes even commuting [you don't say...], Denver doesn't have a truly connected bike path system through the city.  [Which is why a cyclist must know how the trails connect to the streets and the transit system.]  - Westword, 7/7-13/2022

     ...in the bicycle industry...there's a lot of jargon, men are dominant...and information often isn't readily passed along.  "Not a lot of people feel welcome in bike shops."  [One] full-service bike shop and community organization [hosts] Gender Equity Mechanics Night [which] invites women, girls, trans, and gender nonconforming individuals to free workshops...  - colorado parent, 7/2022

     Thursday.  I'm on the way home from work, off the trail and making my way through the residential streets in my extended neighborhood.  Along a short block where a big trailer used to be, it's gone again.  Around a couple of corners and I'm just across the street from my place.  In the little parking lot of a small shopping center is a big trailer.  If it ain't a homeless trailer...what's it doing parked across several spaces here?  Friday.  Just when I am lamenting not having as many hours this week, I get called in to cover open to close.  So, I won't be going to the gym today, or go swimming before work.  But the waterpark has decided to be closed on Mondays this season.  I think I know which day I will be going to the gym before work.  This morning, I'm out of the door around 4:30 AM.  Out on the trail, I'm surprised to see three other early bird cyclists.  Then I pass one of them e--bikers.  He's the second I've seen out here on the trail.  So far, they don't wear helmets, and they dress as if they're in a 1960s motorcycle club.  This guy is wearing a knit cap, zippered jacket and long pants.  It's going to be hot today, and I'm in a sleeveless shirt, shorts, and sandals.  I guess I dressed for the wrong century.  Sorry.  In a short while, I'm onto the connecting trail.  I'm about to climb a short hill and ride the length of the waterpark, further above me across a creek.  Just before the short hill is a bench. In front of the bench is someone on the ground in a sleeping bag.  On the way home after work, I'm back on the short block.  The big trailer has been replaced by an old popup trailer tent with the top half sliced off.  Saturday.  After work I decide to swim at the park instead of my usual Saturday pool.  After the swim, I ride to the train station next up from the nearest one. Today and tomorrow, the one train line I use between home and the other places down here I go is closed for repair.  I catch a bus from that station to a station from which I can catch a train on another line.  That train drops me downtown where I swing by the sporting goods supercenter.  One of the brakes on my bike needs adjusting.  When I get there, I'm surprised to see a line of customers waiting for bike service.  It's a quick line, and a quick adjustment, and I'm headed for home.

     Sunday.  The days of this month have settled into a predictable pattern.  Sunshine in the morning, for a swim, followed by an overcast afternoon.  Today is a big day.  I sneak a swim in, but I must take a bus instead of a train most of the way to the waterpark.  The very section of a train route I need is shut down for repair.  "Tis a short swim and I then head over to the sister's only to help take out trash and throw in a load of laundry.  Then I'm off for a ride all the way back to the station from which I caught the bus.  I catch the other line a few stops to another boulevard, upon which I lived some years ago.  I then catch a bus perhaps 30 blocks north, during which I reapply sunscreen.  I get out and ride to a park with another summer festival.  I wander and make a couple of purchases before I ride toa downtown train.  Pedestrian mall security still gently rousts homeless asleep on the ground.  I hit up a couple of places on the mall for dinner.  One is a bar and grill which appears to be closed for dinner on Sunday.  The other is a downtown Chilis.  They are dark, with a sign on the door.  They aren't calling it quits, are they?  Monday is another strange weather day.  It has to be in the 50s F. in the morning...in the middle of freaking July.  This works to my advantage.  The waterpark is closed this season on Mondays, and the gym is having air conditioning problems, so it's the perfect day for the gym.  I don't have time to put on warmer gear and I do the ride in shorts and a sleeveless shirt.  The ride home is warmer.  On the short block, the homeless van is gone.  There's a newly arrived camper where the grimy grey one used to be.  On the long street a block from my own, the homeless trailer has moved to the opposite side.  A newly arrived hatchback with broken shock absorbers has also arrived.

     On Thursday, I'm coming home from work along the bottom of a hill with the waterpark.  On the side of the trail opposite the waterpark is a covered collection of picnic tables, with a path which leads into the bike trail.  Coming down the path is a homeless guy pushing a shopping cart piled with crap.  He's jerking his head and body almost as if he's dancing.  Something falls out of the cart.  Twenty-four hours late and I'm entering the bike trail home.  A pair of local police cars are coming down the trail.  I sneak around them and hook up with the connecting trail.  I get up to the damaged guard rail.  Just around the corner from there, parked along the busy street, is an SUV with its driver's side windows smashed out.  A broken-down trailer is hitched to the back.  Saturday.  I make a run for a bus to work, rather than for a train to the bus, as I think I have just enough time to do so. The plan comes together.  I stay at work an hour past close, and it's raining off and on, including raining with the sun out.  I could head for the waterpark for a possible swim, but I'm hungry.  I elect to forego swimming for a second day in a row.  Yesterday morning, I decided to cook some lunch for work instead of grab a swim.  Also I was tired.  This afternoon, off work, I eat at a Black Eyed Pea on the way home.  It's across the avenue from both a deathburger and a Chipoltle.  All three establishments, regardless of their proximity to each other, have their own kind of customer culture.  Black Eyed Pea is some kind of throwback to what I remember from the 1980s.  Guys in pickup trucks bring grandma to eat.  There is a separate senior section to the menu.  I come in with bicycle shorts and hair full of chlorine and perspiration, as if from some unimaginable future.  The sound system plays 1970s Elton John followed by country music.  I eat and run.  When I get home I do a grocery run before I hit the hay.

     Sunday is a big day.  Big enough.  I decide to head to the sister's first to assist with some more shelving of books recently out of storage.  There are actually a couple of buses I can catch which will take me almost all the way there, but I miss the most recent by three minutes. No worries.  I need the exercise anyway.  After the sister's, I ride to the waterpark, where I pick up the bike trail.  I bypass the park because I'm headed for an annual library used book sale. It closes at 4 PM, and the waterpark is open until 5:30.   To get to work, I hook up with a horse trail just off the bike trail.  It takes me to one street of the corner where my shopping center is.  If I stay on the horse trail instead of turn off, it takes me straight to another huge shopping center down the street, and directly to the library there.  I frequented this part of town some fifteen years ago, when I worked not far away.  Further down the boulevard is a high school where one of Colorado's famous school shootings took place.  In 2012?  The temperature outside is approaching 100 degrees F and will top out at 104 this afternoon.  I've exhausted my two-liter water bottle.  I go inside the library to a men's room and pour cold water on my head.  I think I will find just a couple books and leave with seven.  The books and myself take the horse trail back to the bike trail and back to the waterpark for a swim.  Then to the train and out at a station, and to the downtown yogurt place.  I top it all off with a ride all the way home.  What a day.

     Monday.  I was going to the gym before work but ran out of time.  In fact, I need to take the train just to make it to work on time.  There's a homeless guy making the rounds on the platform.  He asks the smattering of p[assengers, and even a transit system security officer, if they have a phone.  He gets around to me.  He needs to call his mom he says.  I tell him I don't have a phone.  The last passenger will let him use her phone, but she's boarding the train which just arrived.  He follows her on, but not before yelling to someone, "I'll be back.  You hear me?!"  (Perhaps he can call the person he's yelling to, and let them know he will be back.  But they may not have a phone either.  Or else he could have just used theirs to call his mom...)  He makes his call on the train, and finishes before the train leaves.  He could have exited the train, but he stays on and eventually closes his eyes.  Skip ahead some nine hours.  I stay at work a couple of hours after close.  I'm riding home along the first trail, approaching a baseball diamond in a big open field.  Next to the field is a picnic table where a couple sits as it's getting dark.  Suddenly, four or five inground sprinklers start up at once.  They all appear to be tightly circled around the table.  The couple don't appear homeless, but they climb the embankment toward a street above.  It's a path I've seen homeless take.  Tuesday.  Well...there is a rec center just a few blocks north of where I live.  Their website claims that they open at 8 AM.  This would give me time to workout and make it back to an appointment with my new doctor.  I ride up a side street, climb a hill, cross a busy avenue, and coast down the other side of the hill.  I enter the park with the rec center.  Under a tree is a tent.  I hear a voice come from the direction of the tent,"...fuck off."  I get to the rec center fifteen minutes early.  A young female parks and rec employee is pulling weeds.  I sit...and just happen to glance at a sign on the outside wall.  It posts the hours...including when it opens.  At 10 AM.  I tell the young woman that I'm glad I looked at the sign.

     I have a fine visit with my new doctor.  We discuss my diet and I'm convinced it's time for another change.  At work, I go to the website for the rec center where I work out on the way to work.  I notice that it's now open until 9 PM.  I get out of work when we close and head there for a workout.  Workout problem solved in the same day.  There's no reason I can't workout now after work.  Right across the street from the rec center is the train.  I elect to take it home.  I'm climbing the ramp to the platform as I notice a couple of transit system security officers pull up, park, and get out.  They climb the steps to the platform.  Where disabled passengers board is a raised part of the platform.  It's referred to as the "high block."  She's standing there with some bags.  Her head is shaved and has grey stubble, and she's in jeans and a grim brown T-shirt.  She appears as if she stepped right out of the Manson Family.  The officers approach the block and ask her to come down.  They want to assist her is boarding the next train, and in purchasing a ticket.  Come down from the high block she does and steps over to the ticket kiosks.  She speaks to them purely in riddles and meaningless tangents.  They continue to repeat to her that they simply want to help her board a train.  They're very patient.  She replies with something about, "bars of chocolate bars of chocolate bars of chocolate," and asks them if they are responsible for a tranquilizer up her ass.  They ask her to take her stuff off the block.  She responds by sitting down there.  Rain drops begin to fall and I move down the platform under some shelter.  A train going the other way pulls up and the doors open.  I hear a voice such as that of the guy in the tent this morning.  A gravel voice comes out of one car. "Fuckin' ass bitch fuckin' ass bitch fuckin' ass bitch!"  My own train pulls up.  I get on the first car.  At the front, the driver comes out and asks the woman on the high block if she's getting on.  Apparently not.  We leave her behind, waving to the pair of officers standing and watching her.

     Wednesday.  I'm on the way home down the trail along the river, and out of work at a decent hour.  I came off the first trail home where I rode through some rain which has let up.  I'm not far past the damaged guardrail when I spot up ahead a cyclist and his bike.  He's stopped on the trail, in my lane.  He's unlike anyone I usually see out here.  He's in a skate helmet and mirrored teardrop sunglasses.  He's wiping down his bike with a cloth.  (From the rain?)  I pass him and smell cologne.  Just when I think I've seen everything...  The following morning, I'm headed in to work early.  I'm opening for my coworker.  It will end up being a 13 1/2-hour day as I will stay 3 1/2 hours past closing.  My neighborhood streets are busy with traffic early in the morning.  I make for the train station, where at dawn the homeless are collecting.  I jump out at my station and decide to take the streets instead of the trail.  I'm on a secluded residential street, toward a turn for a brief trip down the horse trail.  On the sidewalk along the street are two toddlers on tiny bicycles, followed by both parents.  It isn't even 7 AM yet.  Why isn't this family still asleep?  Around the corner is the horse trail.  I'm no sooner on it then I'm approaching where I exit onto a street.   Here at horse trail's exit is an early morning logjam of myself, a cyclist behind me, an oncoming cyclist, and a guy walking his dog.  Most days I ride later in the day, and it's never this eventful.  Friday.  I'm applying sunscreen on my back, in front of a mirror, in a second story bedroom of my townhome.  I hear crying outside, and look out to see the back end of a police cruiser right at the drive to my courtyard.  When I leave my house, I see a pair of officers standing in front of a guy on the ground.  He's handcuffed on his back. He appears to be resting now.  I don't recognize him and may be homeless.  I hit the bank before heading to another train station.  I don't know what I would do this summer without the transit system.  Just not enough hours in the damned day.  From here, I'm only going a couple of stops, from where I will make a break for the waterpark before work.

     I exit at the station, where it's becoming more common to see homeless.  This morning, a curious guy is here.  He has some possessions strewn out on a bench.  He stands with a small dog on a leash.  The leash is tied to one of his two rainbow-colored suspenders.  It will be another day threatening to reach 100 degrees F., and he's in jeans.  I see white hair roots appearing below bright honey blonde, almost red matted hair on his head.  He asks me if I know where the nearest convenience store is.  He tells me he wants toothpaste and a toothbrush.  I point across the highway to what I believe is a gas station.  He says he can't see it because he doesn't have his glasses.  He then proceeds to tell me that he was shot in an artery in his leg (the femoral artery, which I help him pronounce) and also injured his foot as well as his finger being shot.  He alludes that this happened to him during the US capture of Manuel Noriega in Panama, during the G. H. W. Bush administration. He asks me if I remember his capture.  I do.  I don't mention that I don't recall a single shot being fired.  I ask him what unit he was in.  He mentions a "2nd Marine Platoon" in which he was a corpsman.  His "port base" he says was Atlanta.  He then asks me how old I am.  I reply and he then mentions that he's just a couple of years older.  Next, he asks me if I remember a football game between the Denver Broncos and the 49ers four decades ago.  Then he wants to know if Ft. Carson is straight west of here.  When I reply that I don't know, he asks me if I'm from around here.  He says he has a job there, and a son who "got some drugs."  The son is in jail and he tells me he needs a "civil attorney."  (Not a criminal attorney?)  I ask him what job he has.  He tells me he will be working at a cemetery.  After the waterpark, I take 15 minutes for lunch at a deathburger.  I sit near a guy on his phone.  He's talking to someone about being a former significant other "for 7 years.  I'm 30," he confesses, and mentions something about the court.

     After work on Friday.  I detour to a grocery on the way home.  From there, I take a route past a small park to reconnect with the trail.  The park has a sheltered area with picnic tables which has been popular with the homeless.  As I ride past the park, the entire shelter has been demolished.  Is this part of an effort to keep away homeless?  The following day is another Saturday.  After work, I do a short swim in some rain and ride up to a big shopping center off the trail.  I'm climbing the incline on my bike to the top, when I'm passed by...the Park Ranger on his electric bike.  On Sunday, I get in a quick swim at the waterpark, while the sun is out.  Then it's off to the sister's to shelve some more books.  From there, I backtrack to a Chilis not far from there.  I'm briefly on the trail along the river.  Right at a spot where river surfers ride is a middle-aged guy.  He's out in the middle of the river.  He's not covered in grime or wearing something which looks donated.  He's in swim trunks, just standing and running his hands over his face and through his hair. Shortly, I get to Chilis.  There's a sign posted in the lobby, asking patrons to leave both their weapons and their disputes outside the establishment.  On the door is an announcement for a program described as "Tip A Cop."  I have no idea what this program is about, but there are cops inside the place when I arrive.  One is wearing some kind of medal.  It turns out that they are accepting "tips" which individual officers then appear to donate to the Special Olympics.  I guess you could say...case closed.  When I pulled up to the place it began raining.  When I'm inside, it pours.  It's still raining when I head out.  I decide to ride shirtless as I don't have my rain poncho along.  I get out onto the trail for a ride in the rain.  The middle of July and there's a cold rain falling.  There's a small outdoor art festival I could have gone to, but it's no doubt getting rained on as it packs up.  I get up to a small golf course.  Golfers have been playing in the rain which is letting up.  A young soaking wet guy covered in a shade of grey stands and watches them from behind the split rail fence.  His belongings are spread out on a bench chopped out of a big log just off the trail.  I do a ride all the way up to the downtown yogurt place.  I've discovered a pizza by the slice place next door.  The contrast between Chilis and here is in the imagery.  Back at Chilis, a woman younger than myself stood with a walker.  Weighing close to 300 lbs., she tried walking with her small feet under her enormous legs by taking quick steps to keep her balance.  Along the top of the walls are multiple screens, each televising a sporting event.  Here at the pizza place is a current hippie decor.  A group of guys comes in, who I assume is from the condo which stretches the length of the block across the street.  Each one wears a white buttoned-down shirt.  An employee asks one of them if they are together.  Someone replies, "Uh, yeah, we don't know what to do."

     On Monday, I'm on the way to work, right back at the same spot across from the golf course.  The clothes on the log bench are now folded, and some are on a hangar on a tree.  Monday is another late one at work.  It's around 9:30 PM when I'm coming up the block with the open field.  The first homeless camper shell and separate vehicle have returned, and are parked mid-block.  I came through here this morning and don't remember them being here.  The following evening, another vehicle and tent will have joined them.  On Tuesday, instead of a late start, I get an early start.  I have a new diet from my new doctor.  It includes a lot of fruit, and I need to hit the supermarket along the way to the waterpark.  I end up at a big park below the waterpark.  It's after 9 AM and a cool breeze is blowing.  I'm sitting on a picnic table under the shade of a big tree.  I'm eating strawberries.  If I didn't feel as though I were in a TV commercial, it would be perfect.  I watch parents with their children out on the trail.  I watch parks and rec guys running around.  And I have a fine swim.  The following morning, I must go in early to cover for my coworker.  I hit the train station around 5:30 AM. A homeless guy is wandering one of the tracks.  It's a bit of a chilly morning, and in his jacket and camouflaged pants, he's pulling weeds.  My train arrives, and he gets on with the rest of us.  He spots my bike and suggests to me that the trains should have bike racks just as the busses do.  Because he claims he was hit by a bike moving on a train.  He smells from six feet away.  He believes that someone should make this suggestion "either to security or the proper authorities," he tells me.  He speaks with a voice like gravel.  He sits down and gets up at every stop to see where we are.  On Wednesday's ride home from work, I'm coming to the point where I exit the trail.  Just across the river, on top of a hill, is the Levitt Pavillion.  A live band is going on up there.  I exit the trail and cross the bridge over the river.  I'm at the first turn across the railroad tracks.  At the corner is a sign pointing toward the block along the open field.  It reads, "Levitt Pavillion on Street Parking."  ...really.  The cars have plenty of room on this street.  There is only one homeless camper shell, one tent, and a newly arrived camper with a windshield smashed on the driver's side.  I watch a pair of young women in crop tops, skirts, and stockings.  They are walking to the park holding hands.  At the back of the camper shell, a woman sits on a cooler.  A guy with white hair and a beard sticking out is watching a pair of concert goers who have just walked past him on the sidewalk.  Friday, I'm coming down the first trail home from work.  I'm approaching a bridge over the creek, one of many through woods and parks.  Just beyond the bridge are a pair of municipal police cruisers and at least a couple of officers.  It appears as if they have just arrived.  In a small clump of woods next to a big field are four teenagers.  One kid has a branch in his hand.  From what little I hear, the one with the branch threatened someone and mentions that he thinks it's funny that someone took it as a threat.  One of the officers explains that his threat is considered a felony.  These are white kids, and around here their swagger is bigger the extent of their menace.  After a good hour, I'm off the trail and back along the curb with the open field.  The camper had moved across the street this morning, leaving trash on the sidewalk where it was.  A newly arrived gold homeless hatchback from a previous decade now held point position along the curb.  Late in the afternoon now, all homeless vehicles have vanished, except for a pickup truck with its bed piled high with junk.

     Sunday.  In the afternoon, I'm at a pizza place for an early dinner.  I catch a brief sound bite from behind the counter.  Someone who may be a manager tells another, "It's not just about pizza.  It's about babysitting idiots."  I don't know about that.  These employees appear to me to be competent enough.  Rather, it's the customers who come in assorted flavors of wacky.  One guy comes in for a slice.  He's telling someone outside that he will help them deal with whatever, and they should just wait there.  The sound system is playing the classic song Spooky.  The guy picks out a slice of pizza from a case.  "Yeah, that slice is good just the way it is.  Just like that.  I used to have this album," he tells the employee.  This day actually began with a ride straight to the sister's, followed by a short swim at the waterpark, and then a train and a ride here.  The sister is almost out of shelf space until her husband can build more shelves.  Before I hit the waterpark, I stop into a Dairy Queen.  Its clientele is a bit different than any other burger place, it's the crowd who appreciates all the ice cream party needs.  The patrons in here appear to be lower-middle class.  It's the sister's neighborhood, not far from the old money estates I ride past on the way to work.  Kids sit in a booth, the daughter with a terrible hair dye job, verbally engrossed with something on one of their phones.  In the next booth, the parents may as well be in another country.  A middle-aged guy brings in his aging mother so they may get in on some sundaes.  The marquee at the waterpark reads, "Today is Lifeguard Appreciation Day."  I get on the train at one end of a car.  A young woman is at the opposite end with her own bike.  She's in a hot pink top and long hot pink Lycra pants.  At one point during my short ride, she comes all the way across the car to where I am.  She appears to have trouble speaking, but I hear her tell me her brakes are new.  She has an old BMX bike with brakes which certainly appear to be brand new.  If I'm not mistaken, BMX bikes don't come with brakes, so this one's customized.  She says out loud the name of the station where she's getting out.  It's the next one.  She carries her bike off and another passenger joins her.  I watch them walk together to one bus gate with a bus before they walk to another gate where another bus is waiting.  On the way to the pizza joint, I'm just outside downtown where a few blocks are having an "Underground Music Festival."  It appears that "undergrounds" translates to "local."  The stages are at separate individual venues.  One band is on a stage in front of a bar patio full of empty seats.  One song peters out as they launch into another.  After my slice of pizza, I sneak next door to use the men's room at the yogurt place.  The pizza joint's men's room is occupied.  From there I ride home to drop off some stuff before doing a grocery run.  On the way home, I approach a passenger train crossing next to a street corner.  Just down from the corner is a small white homeless trailer.  It has one patch which has been spray painted camouflage.  I end up behind a homeless guy walking down the street who turns toward the trailer.  A couple of guys are revving the throttle of a dirt bike next to the trailer.  A couple of guys revving a dirt bike engine next to a trailer with unfinished camouflaged spray paint.  It's an omen I believe we should carry with us into a new month.